Once Upon An Us

KABANATA 21

What?!

I woke up with my private part is aching. Pagkakita ko sa sarili ko why am i naked??? What the fuck happened? I gasped when i remember that pinuntahan ako ni Gavin sa bar. But i don't see him here in my room. Where is he? Or baka 'di si Gavin 'yung kasama ko kagabi?. Napa face palm na lang ako sa kagagahan ko.

Lumabas ako ng kwarto kahit paika-ikaw ako. It hurts but i need to see Gavin. The disappointment is all over my face wala si Gavin. But i saw his bracelet in the table. Umalis na siya agad? Nagsisi ba siya? Baka bumili lang ng pagkain.

I take a bath almost one hour and when i pee it is fucking painful. I almost cry. Nang makatapos akong makaligo wala pa ding Gavin na dumadating. So, he really leave after what happened to us?. I sighed. It's fine, Gemini. Baka may emergency lang. Natawa naman ako sa sarili ko. Emergecy na lang ba lagi Gavin?

I text him but there is no replies. His phone is off so i can't contact him. Congrats Gavin you hurt me again...

***

It's been a month and nagkita kami ni Gavin kahapon i wanted to say something to him but he kept avoiding the hell out of me. Tangina na Gavin para na akong gago. Nasa apartment lang ako at nag-iisip. There's a lot of things happened marami din akong nalaman but i choose to shut my mouth. I need to talk to Gavin first. I need to be calm. Because it fucking hurts.

I did take a leave for a week. Kailangan ko no'n i was drained. Wala na akong gana sa lahat. After all the things that i found out. All of that broke me. But Gavin he's unbothered he didn't even want to talk to me. Yesterday nagkita kami pero para akong hangin. Hindi niya manlang ako pinagtuunan ng pansin. Marami akong gustong i-open sa kanya but he choose to avoid me.

I'm done... I just need more evidence. Just one more. Kasi pagod na ako. My life is full of shit. I am physically and mentally drained. Napabayaan ko 'yung sarili ko. I look like shit. I can't be angry at Gavin because i love him. Pero sobra na kasi.... Parang 'di niya ako girlfriend. Sa ginawa niya pinamukha niya lang na 'di niya ako girlfriend.

Ayokong malungkot mag-isa so i call my friends.

"What's up?," it's Zeus.

"May problem ka ba, Gem?," nag-aalalang ani ni Holly. Napangiti naman ako ng mapait.

"I need you all. Please come here...," halos pabulong na ani ko. I was crying 4 hours straight. I've experienced a lot in just a month. It's too much to handle.

Pagkasabi ko no'n binabaan ko na sila ng tawag kasi nanghihina na ako. I just need ng makakausap... Napuno na ako.

"Putangina Gemini asaan ka?," halos mabingi ako sa sigaw ni Trix. Nasa sala ako at umiinom.

They all looked at me with a shocked look. Madaling lumapit sa'kin si Jade at kinuha 'yung mga bote ng alak... Hindi na nga ako halos kumain basta gusto ko ang kalimutan lahat...

Umupo sila sa sofa at tumingin sa'kin hinihintay na umamin ako sa kanila. They all looked worried.

"Am i not enough? May kulang ba?," nagtatakang ani ko. Kasi 'di ko maintindihan kung bakit Gavin?

Nanlaki naman ang mata nila at dali-dali akong sinagot. "It's Gavin right? I saw him now with a Girl in a restaurant...," biglang pag-amin ni Peter. Hindi na ako nagulat. I know everything...

Humagulgol ako ng iyak sa kanila. "A lot of things happened to me. I appreciate you all but pwede mo ba akong ihatid doon, Peter?," i need to talk to him. Hindi ko na kinakaya.

Kahit labag sa loob nila hinatid nila ako doon sa restaurant na sinasabi ni Peter. And nandoon nga sila he's with Alysson. I know that there is something between them i know that Gavin is cheating on me...

Bago ako lumabas ng sasakyan sinabihan ko na muna sila. "Don't mind me. Sasabay ako kay Gavin pauwi mag-uusap kami. Thank you tatawagan ko na lang kayo if i need help." i sincerely said. Ngumiti naman sila sa'kin.

Naglakad ako patungo sa table ni Gavin and both of them were shocked. Well surprise cheaters!

I looked at the girl with a disgust look. "You're my Boyfriend's side chick." i said while laughing how cute.

Gavin stood up to stop me but i slap him very hard. He deserves that.

I raised my middle finger at them at hinila si Gavin paalis doon para makapag-usap kami. I am done with him! This is too much! You really fucked up Gavin.

Nang makarating kami sa parking lot. Nagsalita na ako. "Mag-usap tayo sa apartment." i said calmly. Kahit na galit na galit ako ayokong sigawan siya ngayon. Wala na akong lakas para makipag away sa kanya.

"Sakay." he simply said. I looked at him and he is looking at me with a cold look. Okay sige pa yata 'yung galit. Bakit nasira ko ba ang date nila? Tangina...