Depths of Despair (Revision)

Chapter 10

"Mama ko may pinagsisisihan ka po ba sa buhay mo?"

My mind was filled with numerous questions as the cool air caressed my flesh. My curious mind is filled with random thoughts and the only thing that occupies my attention are the pleasant feelings I'm experiencing while I'm in my mother's arms.

My mother stroked my hair as we sat and gazed up at the star-studded sky. Her beauty shines through the sky's darkness, and I'm wondering whether she's an angel descending from the heaven I'm looking up at.

We're actually waiting for my father to get home so we can all sleep together. This is one of the times when my feelings are full of happiness as I'm with my mother.

I used to consider myself fortunate to have a whole family. From my youthful perspective, seeing my mother and father together was enough for me.

I am a child with a superficial sense of enjoyment and a naive grasp of the world.

"And why is my beautiful daughter asking me that hmm...?"

I giggled and locked myself more in her embrace. I felt instantly protected and safe in her warm embrace. She pulls me in with a gentle stroke on my arm, and I continue to feel at ease as a result of it.

"Gusto ko lang naman pong malaman," mahinang sagot ko at bahagya pang ngumuso. She chuckled lightly and combed my hair.

I moved away a little to have a chance to stare at her. I was greatly astonished as I saw my mother's eyes that were even brighter than the sky and almost parted my lips as I saw her natural beauty.

Her porcelain complexion, which contrasted with the darkness of the sky, further accentuated her beauty even more. I was almost completely submerged in her stare, which is a blend of land and sea, adding her pointed nose and naturally crimson lips.

It's no surprise that my mother is the embodiment of beauty.

Ang ganda mo po mama...

Ang gustong isatinig ng bata kong isip habang patuloy na nalulunod sa kagandahan ng aking ina.

"Adira, I have no regrets, especially since you came into our lives. You are the most valuable present I and your father have ever received." Her tender voice made me happy and my eyes immediately lit up.

"Talaga po mama?"

"Of course my dear..." She continued to say as she lightly caressed my plump cheek.

"Mama kahit po anong regrets wala po kayo?"

My lack of knowledge of the world and the discovery of new things led me to ask questions I didn't have answers to. I have a lot to learn and see. My young heart and intellect are seeking solutions in order to find calmness. My mind is filled with worry and curiosity, and I won't be pleased until I learn more.

My knowledge and awareness of the world's growth is still incomplete, therefore I continue to seek answers to the issues that plague my thoughts.

"You're practicing being a journalist aren't you?" Her question made me giggle out loud. She smiled at me briefly before morphing into an emotion I can't put my finger on.