THEIR ANGEL

Part 2 X

Dennis

I woke up feeling thirsty probably from the nightmares I've been having and stretched my hand to reach for the glass but it wasn't there. I turned to look at Jaime's side but he wasn't there, where could he be? I got off and opened the door going to the kitchen but before I could get out of the room, I heard voices. I walked slowly and looked hiding on the other side of the corner.

"..... couldn't sleep too. Dennis has been having this nightmares and I don't know what to do to help him." Jaime said looking sad.

"It's going to be okay Jaime. He's a strong guy. And a good looking too. You told me he was cute but I met with.... oh my I never thought I would ever say this aloud but he is hot.... stop staring at me like that." His face was red. I chuckled to myself.

"Yeah, he is but he's also cute. I'm not going to argue about that my word stands." He said and Alex rolled his eyes. Jaime looked happy and relaxed around him. I don't know, maybe I've become too much of a burden to him. "So." He started before my thoughts could lead me far. "About what we talked about the other day. You have been avoiding me."

"I... I don't want to talk about it." Alex said moving back as Jaime moved forward.

"Me neither." And he attached his lips on Alex' who seemed to be fighting it but eventually seemed to relax and wrapping his hands around his neck. I turned and laid my head on the wall listening to them. It hurt.

It really did hurt. I told myself and Jaime also if he ever had found love during the time we were separated we should end everything. I added that it would be okay but I didn't expect it to hurt so bad. I felt like someone was tearing my chest apart and pulling out my heart. Jaime.

"Jaime...." I know how he felt. I remember that feeling.

"Alex. You don't know what you do to me." Jaime said sighing. I listened not wanting to look. I couldn't bare to look.

"What have we done?" Alex asked panicking. "Jaime, Dennis. What are we doing? What are we?"

"You know, Dennis asked the same thing the first day I kissed him." He remembered? He remembered. "Why do you ask?"

"Because boys don't usually kiss like that unless there's something going on." I nodded in agreement. "Are you going to answer my question?"

"I don't know. I want to speak to Dennis first. I don't know how he will take it." He said sighing.

"I understand."

"Wait you trust me. Just like that?"

"I know you Jaime, you don't do things unless you are sure of it. I know how much you love Dennis and I know you have some feelings for me but I'm scared what if it's just an episode and I have my hopes way too high? What if Dennis didn't agree? Are you going to leave him or me? What if you are made to choose? I know I don't have a stand against Dennis and that's why I'm worried."

"Hey..." I ran back to my room and shut the door silently. I went to my side of the bed and laid down. I cried silently listening to the silence but the voices were loud and clear in my head. He has the right to love anyone he wants. We've been apart for what? Almost 2 years now? Yeah, maybe his feelings have gone. Maybe he's just keeping his promise.

I'm broken. Why would anyone love me? I'm used. Who would want me? I'm always sad. Who would want to be around me? I'm depressed, destroyed I'm worthless. Nothing. I guess they were right. I'm better off dead. Without him in noting but with him I'm destroying him. He is always walking on toes around me. Scared that anything might break me. He's always trying to make me smile using fake smiles which hurt me more. What's wrong with me?