Desparate

part 7: date night

Alicia's pov:

I couldn't help but replay what happened yesterday at Damien's place in my head. He was so freaking amazing.
That day was supposed to be a stress relieving day but there was a slight turn of events.

When we were making out, I knew he wanted me as much as I did, him. But the fact that he held back warmed my heart. Me grinding on him was something I only did to him, but after he left, I deleted relationship or anything close from my vocab.

But yesterday was an exception. I really wanted him, so fucking much that I really didn't care about the mission for some minutes. The fact that I had an effect on him made me feel special.
The day I woke up from the attack, I really freaked out because I hadn't updated on my report to agent Greg. I told him everything that happened and he told me to come over Friday night.
I agreed. We had fun yesterday and to be honest, I knew I wouldn't regret it later. But the way his face showed struggle, it made me think that he was thinking about my well-being. I smiled to myself.

Then the teasing. I couldn't help it. When he went back as I approached him, I was certain he really wanted to stop. I knew why. Then, then when I teased him because when I foulded my arms his attention. My boobs are average but round and soft. When I took off my shirt, he was about to die. His pupils dilated and it was like he couldn't get his eyes off of me.

Later after all the teasing, when he asked me to go out with him, I felt so guilty. My personal bubble burst into thin air.

I was at first happy that we reciprocated the same feelings but became scared because I didn't know how to explain to Greg. I was still thinking about everything, silently crying because of how my life has turned.
I missed Dean. So fucking much that I blamed myself for his death.

Just then I felt my phone vibrating in my pocket. I took it and answered the call without checking the caller.
"Hello?" I wiped my tears and sniffed.

"Alice? What's wrong, are you okay?"
"Ye-yeah, I'm okay"_ sniff, _"  just have running nose. I think I'm coming down with something. Don't worry bout me" I replied.

" Cut the bullshit Alicia. You and I know better than that excuse. Now tell me what's wrong. Or should I come?" Lola continued.
I sighed. Then told her everything. She listened for most parts, scolding for some in the process.

After ratting out the line was dead silent, only me hearing my small sniffs.
After awhile she said I should inform captain and Mr. Cruz. I took a deep breath and agreed. We talked for a while, and I cut the call. I dressed up and went to the office because I couldn't hold it any longer.

"Hello Mr. Cruz. Nice to see you again."  I turned and looked at captain and nodded, "Captain Greg, I mean Gregory. Sorry Captain Gregory." I mentally facepalmed. I explained that I wanted to talk to Mr. Cruz alone and he looked at me suspiciously before he left. "Mr. Cruz, I have a confession to make," and I told him everything. He sat patiently listening and when I was done he gave me a thoughtful look. 

"I give you my permission", he said after a long while.

"What?" I couldn't believe my ears.

 "I said I give you my permission you can date him. It's actually for his own good and I trust you'll take care of him".

I smiled widely and thanked him. Captain came back. I greeted them and left.

I went back to my dorm, I actually went back to Damien's dorm and knocked. He came out with puffy eyes like he been crying for sometime.

"Hey, come in", he said flatly. I didn't realize I hurt him this bad.
I smiled at him but he didn't reciprocate it. I looked down disappointed.