The First Day

I have to go...

I looked back and said "Hi Ms.Paulson" with anger in my voice she looked concerned but honestly at this point I don't care how she feels I was so mad at her I trusted her and she told the guidance counselor. I understand that it's her job but this is exactly why I don't tell people things. Ms.Paulson started with "I'm just going to assume she talked to you because your out here smoking?" I rolled my eyes "Yes she talked to me but it doesn't matter my parents are dead so just drop the conversation" She had a horrified look on her face almost as if she was scared to be talking to me. I mean honestly I just wanted her to leave. Ms.Paulson didn't exactly know what to say so she said "I'm so sorry for your loss are you okay or do you need anything" I can't believe she's asking this I'm mad because of her. After I took the last drag off my cigarette I stomped it out on the pavement of the school steps " yes I'm perfectly fine my aunts taking care of me and my little sister" and walked into the school

I got the sudden urge to cut even though my aunt said I shouldn't do it I need to feel some sort of relief. I ran into the stall and got the razor out of my bag. I started with one then two then three and then suddenly I couldn't stop until I heard the bathroom door open. I couldn't tell who it was I heard heels so I assumed it was a teacher so I stopped and took toilet paper to stop the bleeding. I heard a knock on my stall and I heard Ms.Paulson sweet voice say "Abby are you okay". Here we go again I thought to myself " yea I'm fine my stomach hurts a little bit". I know for a fact she didn't buy that and she made that clear " I'm coming in"  I heard her say before I could stop her she was already in the stall she look so disappointed she saw me sitting on the toilet holding toilet paper to my fresh cuts. She picked me up of the floor and brought me to the sink she started to pull up my sleeve and ran my cuts under cold water. She dried it off and said "if you won't talk to the guidance counselor your gonna talk to me and no fighting this because it's happening" I looked at her and said "I have a class right now and you have a class to teach right now so neither of us have time for this" "Your right Abby but I'm giving you lunch detention for smoking a cigarette so we can talk then"
I just rolled my eyes and walked out of the bathroom I have a feeling this might just be the worst day of my life...

Okay I know this isn't the best chapter but I'm working on a longer one but this was just to hold y'all over until the next one