The First Day

Im turing into my parents (possible tw)

The rest of the day went extremely fast so clearly the universe was not on my side today I really didn't want to talk to Ms.Paulson. I'm not high anymore so I'm not as relaxed as I was at the beginning of the day I'm a nervous wreck I've thrown up three times and can't stop fidgeting and moving. The bell rang alerting me that it was the end of the day I made my way to Ms.Paulson classroom regretting what I said this morning every step of the way I wanted the ground to swallow me at that moment. Once I made it to her classroom I walked in and sat at a desk in the front looking down until I heard my name. "Abby don't think I forgot what happened this morning we have to talk about it and if you don't talk to me I'm telling the principal" I just rolled my eyes and said "listen being high is the only time I can be happy and forget about all my troubles I don't know what else you want me to say I'm not going to apologize for what I did that's the way I cope so pleas just leave me alone" Ms.Paulson was shocked at how fast I responded "Abby what your doing to yourself is not healthy there are many other ways you can be happy this should not be one of the ways that you use" I felt a tear run down my cheek and I honestly didn't know what to say I thought about running out but I decided that I needed to let someone in because I don't think I could keep the demons inside of me for much longer without losing my shit.
I looked up to her she saw me crying and came over to hug me and said " It's going to be okay I'm here for you and I'm ready to talk when ever you are" I just nodded and started "there is so much going on in my head and I don't know if I can listen to it anymore I'm drowning in my thoughts and it's like nobody understands how I feel and my aunt is trying to help me but I just don't think she understand and I looked down the path of drugs to make my self feel better and I know I shouldn't have done that but I don't know what other ways that I can really feel happy anymore and I'm just so over it and overwhelmed but trying to make everyone around me happy" at this point I was hysterically crying in her arms "Abby I can see how hard your struggling I want to help you but for me to help you I need you to let me help you and let me in and let me break down those walls that you have built and I know you probably have been hurt so many times in your life but I promise I will be there and I'm not going any where" Ms.Paulson said while making me look in her eyes to see if she was lying but I couldn't find any lie. I was still crying she was hugging me whispering sweet nothing into my ear until I finally calmed down. Ms.Paulson walked away for a second and wrote something on a sticky note and handed it to me "here is my number if you ever need to talk morning or night don't hesitate to call or text I will be there for you and if you ever feel like smoking or drinking please call me it's not healthy and I want to be there for you" I was really confused on why she wanted to help me so much nobody has ever cared about me this much and I'm not used to it. Once she finished it was time for me to go so I got my stuff and said goodbye and thanked her and she nodded and hugged me once more
I decided to go to my favorite place right above the bridge and maybe jump this time I know I'm supposed to feel better after that conversation but it just made feel worse for putting all of my problems onto her. I got to the bridge brought out my bowl and my lighter and smoke the bowl and grabbed a cigarette after and smoked that. Once I was done with that I felt a little better and I didn't want to jump I wanted to go home and see isa. So I walked home but when I got there I saw an unfamiliar car. I walked into the house and heard her voice it was MS.PAULSON.
When I walked into the kitchen I saw my aunt talking to her not really caring if I looked high my Aunt wouldn't be able to notice any ways. I grabbed a water and my Aunt said "Oh hey Abby this is my friend Sarah we have known each other for a long time" I said " This is my English teacher I guess the world really is small" I walked away to my room and laid on my bed and thought about my life decisions. I thought it was so weird that my Aunt new Ms.Paulson I would never have guessed but what ever. I remembered that my parents liquor cabinet was in the hall way and for some reason my aunt hadn't gotten rid of it so I decided to grab a bottle of vodka and walked back to my room and chugged it I had a really stressful day and to be able to forget all of it made me feel a lot better and I haven't had any food all week so the vodka hit hard and fast I filled the bottle back up with water and put it back in the cupboard. I heard my Aunt call me downstairs saying it was time for dinner I don't know if I will be able to walk but I'll try. I walked downstairs and sat at the kitchen table the world was spinning around me I got up to get some water then sat back down and my aunt put a plate in front of me I just couldn't bring my self to eat it. I sat there for a minute pushing it around on my plate before I looked at my aunt " My stomach still hurts I'm not sure if I can eat this" Ms.Paulson looked at my Aunt and waited for her response. My Aunt said " Abby you didn't eat dinner last night and you didn't eat breakfast either and I don't know if you ate lunch or not but I doubt you did so just try to eat a little bit" I looked at my aunt with anger and stood up from the table and tried to walk away forgetting I was drunk and almost fell over but I caught myself. I decided that I was going to go on a walk " I don't need to eat food I'm perfectly fine I'm going on a walk" I yelled as I walked away from the table and walked away as fast as I could and grabbed my school bag and left to go smoke some weed. As I walked out the door I hear my aunt yelling for me to come back but I could to bother to look back.
~Sarah's POV~
Abby left the table and said she was "going on a walk" I didn't believe her and I don't think her Aunt did either her Aunt started yelling for her to come back " I'll go talk to her" I said as I got up from the table and left out the door to go find Abby.
~Abbys POV~
I sat at the park bench packed my bowl and smoked some of it before I heard leafs crunch from behind me and looked back to see who it was to my surprise it was Ms.Paulson...
A/n
I know there is a lot going on in this chapter if it doesn't make since it's cuz I'm drunk so sorry and it's also really long lol any ways hope you enjoy