The First Day

I Can't Have A Normal Life (TW)

I went home and laid in my bed conflicted about how the day has gone. I thought it couldn't get any worse but boy was I wrong I heard a knock on my door I said come in it was my Aunt " Hey it's dinner time I need you to come down and eat" I nodded my head. I was terrified I couldn't eat anymore all my progress would be ruined I can't. Against my own will I walked down stairs and sat at the table. "Isa how was you're day at school" I said. She started rambling on about her day I was trying to look for a distraction to keep myself from having to eat. My Aunt was looking at Isa and listening to her talk about her day. I used that as an excuse to shove food in my napkin so I didn't have to eat it. I ate about one or two bites when she was looking but when I was done I immediately took my plate to the sink and threw my napkin away. I went back up to my room. I laid in my bed for a couple minutes before I just broke down again I couldn't do this anymore people were looking after me now. Not that my parents ever did I couldn't stop thinking about them and I needed something to get them off my mine so I made sure my Aunt was still downstairs grabbed a half a bottle of vodka and went back to my room and chugged it I waited for that to kick in I grabbed my bag and threw it out the window so she didn't like I was trying to go do something that I'm not supposed too. "Hey do you mind if I go for a drive just to clear my head" I asked my Aunt I started to feel the vodka kick in and hoped she would say yes so I didn't have to sit in the house drunk. She nodded her head and said "Be back before 10:30" I agreed and left I clearly wasn't going to drive after I just drank so I walked to the window got my bag and walked to the park bench. When I got to the park bench I lit packed my bowl and started smoking it. After a couple hits I set it down and I hear someone. "Hey fuck face remember me" I started breathing heavily I knew exactly who it was it was Lily... she tormented me all threw middle school her Parents eventually sent her to an all girls school because of how bad she was. I whipped my head around and I felt a puck to my face I stood up and stumbled a little bit and I felt a punch to my gut. I fell to the ground from the pain and she started kicking me in the side over and over again. A car pulled up beside us and she ran as fast as she could. The person in the car got out and came running over to me. It was Ms.Paulson of course it was her it couldn't be any one else. "Abby are you okay I need to get you home now" I didn't want anyone to make a big deal about this so I got up to the best of my ability " I'm fine Its just have a couple scraps I can walk home". I really didn't want her to drive me home I probably smelt like weed and my eyes were probably redder then a tomato. "Abby your not fine I'm driving you home" there was no way I could escape this I'm screwed. I got in her car after having grabbed my stuff off of the park bench. "I know you don't want to talk about this but who was it and are you sure you're okay" I'm just going to tell her I don't know who it was and that I'm perfectly fine. " I honestly have no clue who that was and I'm can assure you that Im okay you don't have to worry". "Okay I'm gonna go inside with you so I can tell you're Aunt what happened" I nodded. We pulled into my drive way I started to feel really dizzy and sick. We got into the house and tried to say I was going to go upstairs before I fell to the ground in pain. Ms.Paulson and my Aunt both came running to me "Sarah what happened why did she just fall". "I took her here because I saw someone at the park beating someone up and I pulled over and saw it was Abby she said she felt fine" they said in a panic. "We need to take her to the hospital" I heard my Aunt say my heart started racing they can't take me there they'll know I'm drunk and high and they will see my scars and see how skinny I am I need to act okay " no it's okay I don't need to go a hospital I'm fine I just tripped" I said trying to get them to change there mind. "Abby no I'm not letting you talk me out of this we are taking you to the hospital and if you're too tired then you need to let me look at your side and I'll take you tomorrow" my aunt said in a serious tone. SHIT SHIT SHIT what do I do she wants to look at my side that means I have to take my shirt off and your can see my new wounds and see how skinny I am but I am afraid that there is no way around this. " you can just look at my side we can go tomorrow I guess" she started taking of my shirt and I started crying hysterically because I was in pain and I didn't want them to see my body. My Aunt finished taking my shirt off but she stopped when she saw how skinny I was she starting crying and walked away for a second and Ms.Paulson pulled me into her lap and tried to calm me down while my Aunt was calming down. She looked down at my wrist and she started crying to. Then to top it all off isa came down stairs and saw us all I quickly put my shirt back on and wiped my tears and brought her back upstairs and laid her down in bed. "Abby can you sing me a song I can't sleep" I nodded my head and sat on her bed and held her hand while I sang her favorite song. (You are my sunshine). When I was done singing Isa was asleep I went back down stairs scared of what I was going to see. When I got down the stairs I saw My Aunt and Ms.Paulson sitting on the couch with tears still in there eyes. I sat on the couch across from them. "Abby I don't know what to do you clearly need help but I don't know if I can help you so please tell me what the best way to go about this would be" I didn't know what to say I didn't know I was fine with the way things were going but they apparently were not. "I don't know understand what you mean things are going fine". Ms.Paulson chimed in "Abby of you don't start talking we might have to send you to a treatment center" I lost it at this point they can't send me away I'm 19 " no that's not happening I'm 19 I can make my own choices and I'm not going there I'm sorry but it's not going to happen"

A/n I'm going to try to include your ideas in the next chapter I'm trying to decide if they should send Abby away or they shouldn't. Comment what you want to happen