We belong together [Rewriting]

Chapter 26

Harry Styles

My thumb hovered over the search botton. I had typed in the name I wanted to search on the Google search engine but I have yet to gather up the courage to actually searched him yet.

Pressing search will break a vow I made years ago, to never Google my father again. I ran my hand on my face breathing in. I put down the iPad on the counter and hissed.

Something about what Cassandra said last night kept nagging and bugging me. Fuck her for fucking up my life right? Screw her.

I banged my head with my palm. I didn't wanna Google the man that left me as a new born. I didn't wanna know about him.

That's what I kept telling myself anyway but in a not so deep part of me wanted to know about him. I hate him for making me feel like this, for making me feel like I need his validation. I hate him and Cassandra too.

I picked up the iPad with the intention of erasing the name but I didn't do it. Something about him having other children  other than us got to me. It made me feel some type if way.

I wandered if they grew up like me, waiting for him longingly until eventually the longing turned into hate.

Just as I decided to press search, Jane walked in.

"Hey!" She greeted me then opened the glass cabinet.

"Hey!" I replied absent minded. She didn't notice it though. She took out a glass and poured herself a watermelon juice that I had placed on the counter.

"After using this, you put on the fridge." She scolded me putting the jar in the fridge. "And empty glasses go to the sink not on the counter."

I didn't get why she hired help when we have to do everything ourselves but I didn't tell her that.

She took the glass and put it the sink herself.

"Hey Jane, does Edward have other children besides us three?" She paused and her body tensing a bit. She raised her head and met my gaze.

"Why are you asking that?" She asked timidly and confused.

"I.. it's... just something Cassandra said last night." I stated and looked down at the iPad in my hands.

"Don't take anything Cassandra says to your head. She's delusional." She told me.

"But does he though?" I pressed. I knew she knew the answer and judging by her evasiveness I concluded he does and Jane knows who she/he is.

"Why the sudden interest in Edward, I thought you hated him." I shrugged my shoulders.

"I don't know I guess. I just thought if I had another sibling out there I'd want to know about them and Amara was a disappointment."

"Don't think about it too much. Whether we do or we don't, he's better off without him."

"So it's a him." I pointed out. Jane realized he'd given me what I wanted. She opened her mouth trying to say something then closed it.

I stared at the iPad again then erased the name.

"And since you're here I want to run something by you." I leaned forward placing my elbow on the counter.