Someone To Lose//Merder

Past Come Back To Haunt Me

⚠️TRIGGER WARNING- RAPE, SEXUAL ASSULT, VIOLENCE PLEASE DO NOT READ IF THIS MAY TRIGGER YOU⚠️

Meredith POV

I awake abruptly by the feel of something cold on my skin, almost metal-like. I open my eyes to see a tall blonde-haired man standing in front of me. His demeanor cold. He's wearing a dark hooded jacket and baggy jeans but that's not what I care about. What I care about Is the blade that is against my neck. The blades that one move could kill me.

"Hello, Meri have you missed me?" the man coldly asks I study his face once more before it clicks who this man in front of me is. "Finn?" I ask. 

"Ah so you remember who I am?" he mutters snidely

I keep my posture stiff so that I don't get hurt by the blade that's against my neck. "What are you doing here Finn?" I ask trying to sound confident but my voice shakes betraying me.

I watch as he removes the knife from my neck and begins to step back chuckling. Now is my chance to escape. Except I can't move I am completely frozen. 

"You owe me pain meri, don't you remember what happens. you let me go to jail you told them when you said you wouldn't speak about it. You knew what would happen, didn't you? didn't you?" he asks again "Answer me you slut!" he yells as he lunges towards me grabbing by my arms and dragging me to the nearest ally. He uses his full force to slam me against the wall banging my head against the full force. I feel my brain start to go into its defense shut down. But it can't I need to stay alert. I need to look after my baby.

"This will give me the closure I need, you see, last time we never actually got to consummate our relationship Meri and now I get to, you understand?" his voice brittle. I nod gently preparing for what I knew was about to happen.

Adrenaline starts to course through my veins, I see as Finn begins to reach for my trousers. This is my chance I have to scream. Whilst his attention is fixed on my lower half I begin to scream begging for health but it doesn't work. He wraps his hand around my mouth and begins to knee me in the stomach, knocking the wind out of me. He can't hurt the baby I have to do something. "STOP" I beg he stops and glares at me his eyes burning into mine. "What did you just say to me skank?" he asks.

"don't hurt the baby" I whimper " you can do whatever you want to me but please don't hurt my baby" 

A smirk appears on his face as he reaches for the hem of my sweatshirt. "Figures whorey little Meredith grey, pregnant. How do I know you won't tell anyone huh?" he demanded beginning to raise the sweatshirt over my head. Goosebumps prickle my skin as the cold hits my skin. "I won't just please please don't hurt my baby" I beg tears brimming in my eyes.

"well, it's really too bad I can't believe a word you say isn't it?" I tense as he places his hands on my stomach before pulling his fist back and punching me in the stomach. "I huddle over in pain when he pins me against the wall once more. grunt as my head comes in contact with the damp hard brick over and over again. He lets go of my arms but I have no energy to move. I slide down the wall onto the cold concrete floor. The dizzy sensation filling my brain.

He proceeds to climb on top of me straddling my waist and sucking my neck in pleasure. I wince as he dismounts ripping the black leggings off of me and pulling my pants down from my waist. "please" I beg as he punches me in the mouth. I can't breathe it feels like the world is closing in on me. My brain shuts down from PTSD when he begins slamming himself into my tight core.

I scream in pain as his penis tears through me. I'm dry all I can feel is the ripping. "Wow meri, you've really gained weight, haven't you? How on earth did a fat pig like you get knocked up." I know what he's trying to do. He's done it before, so has my dad. They used it as a manipulation technique. I don't reply I just lay waiting for someone to find me or for darkness to take over.

why can't I just lose conciseness already? I try to yell and scream but no matter how hard I try it doesn't come above a pathetic whimper. I am going to die and I never got to tell Derek I love him. I should have heard him out. Maybe I misunderstood. Tears begin to roll down my face. My body giving up in exhaustion as I squirm for freedom. A sharp pain shoots through my chest as the knife previously held at my throat plunges in and out repeatedly, in sync with Finn's movements below.

The Seconds feel like minutes, the minutes like hours, and hours like days. I can feel the blood pooling around me. It's excruciating. I don't want to be alive. Let me die please god, please. I whimper as Finn pulls out one last time before proceeding to put my clothes back on my body as though what he just did to me never happened.

He flees before I can even say anything. my body cold as though made out of ice. The world spinning around me. I can hear something I don't know what it is but it gives me hope. It's like a voice in my head guiding me. I pry myself off of the floor putting the weight on the wall beside me, stumbling out of the ally and towards the voices that call my name.