Someone To Lose//Merder

Just A Little Longer Now

No one's POV-

It had officially been 76 hours since Meredith's surgery, removing the sedative 4 and they were just waiting for her to wake up. Derek was going crazy he hadn't really left the room the entire time she had been admitted except from when Cayolyn drags him out to eat or shower. she would try to get him to sleep in an on-call room to get a good amount of sleep but that is where he would draw the line. He insisted on sleeping by Meredith's bedside in case something happened. 

Merediths friends were pretty much the same, but they had jobs to do because as much as they were worried about Merediths condition, they couldn't afford the time of and with both Meredith Derek down the chief couldn't afford it either. that didn't stop them from sitting outside the door of the ICU every free minute they had.

All the interns got pretty close to Mrs. Shepherd over the past 72 hours, even Cristina which shocked the others, and as much as Meredith was afraid of families and commitment they knew that she would need support after this and maybe Carolyn was exactly that.

But for now, they just sit and wait, all of them had been given the day off to sit in the view of the window, they were excited to have their friend back but terrified at the exact same time, none of them knew what could be of Merediths condition when she wakes up, due to the lack of oxygen when she coded. They were just grateful that their friend is alive, ignoring anything else.

Cristina POV- 

I am terrified, I'm absolutely shitting myself. I may be a tough person to most, but when it comes to mer I am not. she is my person I can't let anything happen to her but it has and now I'm here with everyone else just playing the waiting game, even Bailey is here with us. She's sitting in the room with Derek. neither of them moving or talking, just silently sitting there each with one of her hands clasped within their own.

I reminisce over every moment with mer from the moment met her until now, I remember the shit I gave her on our first day when she got picked for the surgery instead of me, I was jealous and petty and in all fairness she earned it, she found the problem, she took care of the brat from the time she was admitted, she deserved to see it through, she saved Katie Brice's life that day. I had finally met my match.

I may have hated her and Derek's relationship, especially the moment that Addison showed her face but I have to admit that I was wrong and that is a very rare occurrence for me. I was very wrong about Derek Shepherd, if this week has proven anything it would be that. He loves her.  that man has basically run himself into the ground out of worry and guilt of what happened to her. I haven't seen him leave the hospital once just in case something happens, and the arguments I've seen with him and Satan are proving his point, even more, I mean even his mother had a few words of her own to say to the bitch, I bet if Sloan didn't break it up she would have punched her then and there. 

It's crazy to think that Mrs. Shepherd cares that about mer I mean they haven't even officially met and she's risking assault charges for her, and then there's Meredith's own mother who couldn't care enough to come home from her 'writing vacation' as mer calls it when her daughter almost died. I really am losing respect for Ellis Grey as wonderful of a surgeon as she is.

"Cristina. Cristina" I'm pulled out of my thoughts by Izzie waving her hand in my face.

"huh?" I turn to her and she looks at me concerned

"are you okay? I've been calling your name for like five minutes now"

"OF COURSE I'M NOT OKAY IZZIE I'M SITTING OUTSIDE OF MY BEST FRIEND'S ROOM WAITING FOR HER TO WAKE UP SO WE CAN SEE IF SHE IS A VEGETABLE OR NO. SO NO IZZIE I AM NOT OKAY!"

Izzies face drops and her eyes well up with tears as she turns away.

"Izzie I-I'm so sorry I didn't mean to snap at you like that I'm just so terrified right now."

she scoffs at me in reply letting the tears I caused to fall.

"And you don't think anyone else is scared? Your not the only one who loves her we all care about her I mean Derek hasn't even moved from her bedside unless forced and I've never seen bailey such a mess you're not the only one with issues right now so forgive me for having empathy and asking if you are okay"

"I-" I was about to reply when bailey running out of the room stopped me.

"She's waking up".