Someone To Lose//Merder

A New Type of Love

Carolyn's POV

Immediately, when I enter the room I can see Meredith tense up, I try my best to act kind and motherly without smothering her at the same time.

'Hello Meredith

'Hi' 

I can see she's uncomfortable so I look at Derek for confirmation for me to stay, I don't want to scare her. She's playing with her wrists and while Derek is nodding at me saying that it's okay, I still don't fully believe him. 

'I Just wanted to check up on you after all you seem like a great girl'

'Thank you..' she is whispering so quietly I can barely even hear her

'Thank you for what dear?' 

'For being here for Derek and for standing up to Addison for me, I mean you barely know me and I'm nothing but a slutty, disgusting woman, but still, you stood up for me when you didn't have to

I smile softly at the rambling Derek has told me so much about the rambling I can tell he treasures deeply just by looking at his face.

'You Meredith are not slutty one bit, you did not choose to do that, I know how much you love my son and I can always tell when someone is a bad person, I never liked Addison, and Derek knew that.'

I look up at my son as he speaks 'I never really liked her either I was just kinda stuck with her'

'Any yet somehow you ended up married to the she devil' Meredith giggles slightly from her bed looking at Derek's cheeks redden. 'I'm sorry, mom'

'I know you are baby'

Meredith tries to discreetly hide a yawn from us but I see it, I can't imagine how tired she must be mentally and physically.

'it was lovely to meet you, Meredith, I just wish it was in better circumstances

'You too Mrs. Shepherd'

'Please call me Carolyn'

'Oh okay, Carolyn' she smiles at me gently 

Every part of me wanted to tell her to call me mom but Derek has told me about her situation with her mother and I didn't want to put her into anything uncomfortable.

'You rest dear, Derek I'm going to go back to my hotel for the night and I'm meeting up with Mark for dinner tomorrow ill try to pop over beforehand' 

'Okay, mom' I hug him goodbye before leaving the room looking at the lover's gaze between the two as I do so.

Merediths POV

As I rest my head back ready to go to sleep I think of all the feelings I'm feeling right now, new feelings.

Never in my life have I felt the love of a mother other than adele Webber, but even then part of me always knew that she resented me even when she tried not to.

I smile to myself 'I love you, Derek'

he climbs on the bed next to me embracing me in his arms 'I love you too Meredith

I could get used to the idea of having a family, finally.