Someone To Lose//Merder

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Derek POV

At some point whilst sitting by Mers bedside I must have fallen asleep, I am awoken to what sounds like Bailey whispering my name, I groggily lift my head off the bed blinking the sleep out of my eyes.

"Derek, you have a visitor." she motions to the window of Meredith's room to my mom looking at me with her caring eyes and Mark by her side. I look at mer not wanting to leave her side. "I would let her in but I can't have more than one visitor in her room at a time and since you're not on shift it would exceed the limit" she continues.

I look back at  Meredith once more, baileys comment about not being in shift sticking in my mind, " will you stay with her whilst I go talk to my mother" She looks towards me care in her eyes  "of course shepherd now go talk to your mom and get yourself some food I won't leave her side for one second" 

"I won't be longer than thirty minutes" I stroke the hair out of Mer's face planting a kiss on her forehead before leaving the room.

Carolyn POV

It feels as though my heart shatters at the sight of my son and his girlfriend's broken form lying in the bed next to him, I should be used to this; I was a military nurse for god sake I've seen some horrendous things but its the fact that this is happening to my family that makes me want to collapse into a pile of tears.

I see my son making his way to the door of the girl's hospital room and I try my hardest to compose myself knowing that if this is how I feel in this moment things for him must be magnified x 100.

 I finally get a proper view of him or his scruffy hair and bags under his eyes as he exists. I am about to approach him and envelope him in a hug but before I can he's already got his arms wrapped around me sobbing on my should. I stroke the back of his head consoling him silently waiting for the sobs to quieten "shh shh it's okay". 

I hear him mumbling the words 'mommy' to me and pain punches me, before today the last time he called me mommy was when he was 20 and crashed his motorbike.

He pulls back from the hug sighing as I wipe his tears away. " Derek ". he is breathing deeply in an attempt to compose himself "I need to get in mm scrubs then we can both stay in her room".

I look at him confusion etched on my face, "Bailey said only one visitor can stay in the room if I get into my scrubs it seems as though I'm working" I nod skeptically at this plan not wanting to stop him " okay son, you do that, ill get us some food and bring it back here and you are going to tell me every little thing about that gorgeous woman in there okay?" he smiles weakly at my comment about Meredith before heading to get changed.

I sigh running a hand through my hair; watching the young girl and who mark told me was her resident through the window.

"Carolyn!" 

I never thought I could ever get so angry at my age but as soon as I hear the voice my blood boils and I see red.

"Addison" I speak through gritted teeth.

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