Grandma is screaming again the brats being a brat I'm actually starting to believe what they said "trauma bulides character"
Or atleast builds less bitch babyness hate that brat
I want physical contact I need physical contact why I didn't get it earlier is because
1.i didn't wanna walk up my mother
2.brat was up there
3.i was sorta afraid to go upstairs
4.i don't trust any other person to give me physical contact in the surrounding area
Tried of living cause of this
Was already tired of bullshit
Want to be with parterns right now but one busy and one I just to afraid to ask if they wanna talk fear of awkwardness
Tired feel like I'm dieing due to the blood leaking out of me hurts my pride as a person used to make up stories on why the blood happened trying to remember them so I feel happier with it
People don't get my jokes yay
Waiting for response from teacher talking about my gender and trauma (sorta trauma ) and supriseingly all u can thing about is how I'm victimizing myself well that was before a while back but saying it know brings back the memory
Dad's coming home not sure how I should feel about that
Night or morning to who ever reads this
YOU ARE READING
a freak with thought
Randomum so hey round 2 of writing this so hey I'm ink and I'm writing this to get thought down trigger warning suicidal thought and bad grammar