SITUATIONS ✔️

BABY YOU KNOW THAT

CHAPTER NINETEEN: BABY YOU KNOW THAT

"I really hope you know that..."

WARNING: SPG! 18+ CONTENT!

I'm all about being confident about your looks and what you do. Noon pa man, alam ko namang may itsura ako, I cleaned up to distract myself from Timothy and I can say that it worked. Tumangkad din ako at doon ko napansin yung mga titig ng mga ibang lalaki at kahit babae kapag naglalakad ako sa may kalsada o sa mga restaurant.

I remembered wearing a red strapless dress, it was a bold color for me. But I can still remember everyone's eyes on me, it wasn't just as if they were observing me... they were staring at me as if they want something... it's just something else.

I realized that I'm not just some girl who fell in love with a Nakamoto, that I'm not just some girl who was known as the 'smart kid' in the class.

I was now a woman. A beautiful woman. Iba na 'ko, ibang-iba na. Yung pagsulat ng ngiti ko mula sa labi ko nang makita ko yung sarili 'kong itsura sa salamin. I am Charlotte Louise Salvador, and I could say that I am confident now.

I am beautiful, I didn't want to make myself look bad by telling myself how ugly I am anymore. I am really beautiful, and I... for the first time... I loved myself.

Of course, I still feel insecure when I'm around other women or models. It's normal, but I'm always going to be happy with what I have... or with what I am.

But for the first time in a long time, I've never felt so much jealousy until now. And it's all because Katerina is friends with my boyfriend since high school. Ano bang problema ko? Ba't ako ganito?

She's gorgeous, so fucking gorgeous. And I am so jealous. There IS something wrong with me.

"Charlotte?" tawag sa'kin ni Rina na nakatayo na habang nakaupo pa rin ako.

"Yes?"

"Are you okay? Kanina pa ta'yong tinatawag nang secretarya ng CEO, you good?" she asks.

Tumayo agad ako at naglabas nang maliit na ngiti sa kanya. Tumango rin ako sa kanya at kinuha ang bag ko sa tabi ko.

"Yes... I... I am fine." I sighed.

I feel so stupid for no reason. Naiinis ako, nagseselos ako... masyadong maraming emosyon sa isip at utak ko ngayon. Hindi ko alam kung paano ko ilalabas 'to, pero kapag nilabas ko 'to, hindi magiging maganda ang ending.

It's driving me crazy. Now I'm thinking na baka may nangyari sa kanila. Silas was a playboy, and who knows if they did more than that... if Rina and him had something.

Goddamnit. I need to calm myself down. I really do.

Pumasok kami sa loob ng opisina mismo ni Silas. May hawak hawak siyang mga dokyumento pero malaki ang ngiti niya sa'ming dalawa pagpasok na'min. And now my mind is going crazy, wondering if that smile is for me or for her...

Nakangiti pa rin ako, sinusubukan kong ngumiti. Calm down, please calm down, my heart.

"Good morning to you, Mr. Nakamoto." Rina greeted him.

Ako na lang ang nagsara ng pintuan at narinig ko yung pagbati pabalik ni Silas sa kanya with my hand on top of my chest. Huminga ako nang malalim at tumalikod para harapin si Silas ulet.