Moments in Time. || Phan

When I look at You.

*Phil's POV*

"D-dan. Dan! Dan please." I squeaked out, shaking Dan awake. "Get off me." He grumbled, shoving me over. A little too far over.

"Ow!" I yelped as I fell off the bed. "Oh my god! Phil, I'm so sorry!" Dan flailed around, standing up and helping me.

"What did you want?" Dan asked calmly, once we were both stood. "Well, the-" BOOM. "Storm is still going on." I whined.

"Phil, you're 28." Dan said jokingly. "Says the guy who is 23 and is afraid of the dark." I replied wittily.

"You got me there." He sighed. "What do you want me to do about it? Call Poseidon? Well, phil, unfortunately I'm not Percy."

"Yeah, unfortunately." I spat. "What's wrong? You're acting different. Not dramatically, just, you don't usually spat things out like that." Dan asked, hugging me from behind.

"I've just been thinking." I sighed, turning around and taking his hands in mine.

"Care to share?" Dan smiled sweetly. "I've been thinking that...someone like me doesn't deserve someone like you."

"Bullshit. Phil, you're the best thing that's ever happened to me. Someone like me, doesn't deserve someone like you." Dan said firmly, wrapping his arms around my waist.

"Thank you, love." I whispered back. "Oh, and Phil?" "Yeah?" "Go take a shower. You smell horrible."

"Rude." I giggled, playfully hitting him. I walked into my room (because I stayed with Dan last night) and grabbed some clothes.

I stepped into the bathroom and stripped down, starring at myself in the mirror.

'Why does Dan even like you? Look at you. You're...gross. I doubt your own mother loves you. You should just stop trying. Actually, just stop living.'

The thoughts swarmed in my brain. They never went away.

I get into the shower and let the hot water relax my muscles. When I finished washing, I stepped out.

I got dressed into everything but a shirt. I stand back in front of the god forsaken mirror.

"I'm so ugly." I whispered. "Just fucking look at me." "I am."

I quickly spun around to see Dan.

"Phil, I've been looking at you since 2009. And when I look at you, I see nothing but perfection. When I look at you, all my pain goes away. Phil, back in 2009, you saved me. Seeing you talk about yourself this way makes me so upset. No one should feel like that about themselves. I love you so much. Don't you ever forget that." Dan said between sobs.

I was crying now too. "Dan, I don't deserve you. You're amazing. I love you so much." I said, hugging him as tight as possible. "Philly, for me, can you please try to never think that way about yourself again?" Dan whispered. "I'll try anything for you."

"Dan! Look the storm is gone!" I squealed, jumping up and down. "Yay! Now it's just- OH MY GOD." Dan yelled.

"PHIL. ITS SNOWING." He shouted to me. "HOLY SHIT. OMYGOD" I yelled, running up to the window.

"Let's wait and see if it snows enough to go outside, yeah?" Dan smiled. I nodded happily.

This day was one of the best days of my life.

Too bad it didn't stay that way.

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WELL, IM BACK. SORRY GUYS. I KINDA FORGOT THIS EXCISED. NOW THAT IM BACK I WANT TO PUNCH MYSELF FOR CHOOSING EROSE11 AS A NAME.

UGH. SEE YOU SOON LOVES Xx