After Erwin's speech, all the soldiers started to turn and walk away. That's what I should've been doing, but I couldn't bring myself to move. It was like I was frozen in place, my feet firmly planted on the ground. All this time I worked my ass off to be in the top for MP's, now look at me.
Damn you, Yaeger.
Once everything was done and over with, we had free time to stand next to the fire. I noted everyone that stayed behind. It appeared to me I wasn't the only one that was moved by Eren's speech when I spotted Jean and Connie crouched next to the blazing flames. I saw the stress clear in their facial features.
"Y/n!" I heard a voice yell from behind me, startling me a bit. I turned my head seeing Mikasa and Armin standing next to one another. I walked over to them both with an awkward smile. "What happened to you joining the MP's," Armin asked.
"Well someone's gotta protect everyone." I laughed lightly. I still couldn't believe it myself, after hearing so many bad stories about the Scouts. It was a death sentence but it was too late now, no turning back. I looked at Mikasa, seeing her dark black eyes look at me made me shiver. I always looked up to her and admired her skills. There was nothing she couldn't handle.
"I think Eren got to me a bit, I'd rather die in the hands of a titan than sit behind the walls like a coward." I looked at my boots, noticing one of the boots slouching. If Levi was here he would have my head. "Y/n don't feel ashamed," Mikasa spoke up making me blush.
"I-I know! I just can't help it, I always dreamed of living in the interior, living carefree doing nothing. But I never realized it until just now, that's not how I want to go out. I want to die doing something, I want to die knowing I tried for humanity."
I clenched my fist's feeling my head pound, I wanted to cry. But I wasn't fixing to cry in front of them, that would make me look weak and I know if Jean, Connie, and Sasha saw me they wouldn't let me live it down.
I felt a hand lay on my shoulder. I honestly didn't want to look up scared they'd see me like this, but I did anyway. "It's okay to cry. You don't have to be strong all the time." Mikasa spoke giving my shoulder a light pat. It was like after that I couldn't handle myself and they just started to slip down my cheeks.
"You're strong y/n. You may not think that now, but you are. I've seen it myself, the way you protected everyone in the battle of Trost. You'll do just fine." She's an angel was all I could think. I smiled with a light sniffle wrapping my arms around her. I tended to hug people when I got happy, it was like a habit of mine.
She tensed slightly but slowly wrapped her arms around my waist, rubbing my back. "You'll do great. Don't ever doubt yourself."
