I trust you Hawks x reader

The truth

Your POV

My heel clicks to the ground just as hers does. The confidence I have right now is matched maybe even stronger. "I have learned a few things from you dad. Number one is do not take anything from anybody. Two is if you have something to say say it. Three is if you feel like confident in your decision then don't hold back on it. Four is to give everything you've got in any hard situation. One of the most important things is fifth. Even if you feel your opponent is stronger than you. That the task that you have to take on is difficult. Be stubborn and hit it head on. Hit it till it breaks and then some. I've lived by those words ever since I've heard them. I've gone over every single one in every situation I've ever gone through. So I'm going through with. Like it or not you can't stop me. If this puts us at square one again that's fine I can live with that so stay out of my way." I say kicking my shoes off.

I run towards Teka. I jump and wrap my arms and legs around her. I head bud her. We fall back. I hold the back of her head.

"You need to wake up and notice us for who we are. We aren't meant to be these objects you can control and decorate. Do you now how much of a monster you sound like? Telling your own grandchildren that they aren't good enough. That they aren't up to your standards so they have to be fixed. I personally have dealt with it long enough. You push people away and you judge them. You put on this fake personality when you could actually be kind. You are beautiful on the outside that maybe true but on the inside. You hate yourself for being the person you are. Your personality and behavior will never match. Just because you hate yourself doesn't mean you get to put it on others. Especially your family. The ones you should care about the most. You've hurt dad most of all. You've been a terrible mother to him. He fears you. He wanted your love and affection as a kid but you refused to give it to him. Because how could you love him when you can't love yourself. You treated him like garbage making him turn into you. In my opinion you're the source of all of this. This mess of a family. You feel the same way it's all true. The look you're giving me says it all." I say looking into her eyes.

She tears up but refuses to cry. I don't care though. "Get off of me." She says. "No." I say. She tries to break free but I hold her tighter. "I'm not letting go until you accept it. I won't let you run from this anymore. Because you went through the same thing. We are our parents children. They weren't the best at showing affection the way parents should. We have to accept that. We can't change the past. We can only improve and be better than them." I say. She stops forcing herself.

I holder more gently. "It hurts a lot I know I really do. It's the truth though. The truth is hard to deal with and accept. I want to accept it to break the cycle. We're better than this and you know it. We can live up to the public's vision and then some. I did look up to you at a point in my life." I say. She looks a bit shocked. "I didn't know how affection worked but I saw how happy you and grandpa were and I though that's what it was supposed to look like. I wanted what you had. So I tried my best to be like you. Then the day that you pushed me away from you. I realized I was wrong about you. A part of me wanted to believe you were good still though. That you just needed some space even though you didn't want me. I'm tired of waiting though. I want you back to the way you were how I saw you before. I know that you're in there you just need to come out." I say. I loosen my grip on her.

She sits up. I stay in her lap everyone went inside at some point. She smacks me hard. I smack her back just as hard. She smacks me again. I smack her back. We keep smacking each other.

She smacks me a little less hard and I do the same. She does it again. I just lay against her not wanting to keep going. I rub my face in her neck tired. She doesn't pull me off or tries to move me. She holds me. I hold her back.

Our faces are scratched up and red but it was worth it. I finally broke her out. She rubs my back. "I love you. You don't have to say it back. I do though. In my head I always told myself that to just treat you like a stranger. I wanted you to be more than that though. So thank you for opening up. It means a lot to me and maybe all of us." I say. "Whatever." She says looking away. I give her a kiss on the cheek just to shock her. "You're just like your dad you know." She says looking away. I look at her.

"He's hot headed and does what he wants no matter how it effects others. He means well though. He tried to do this too. He failed though. He wasn't as persistent or aggressive. It's probably because he feared me. You didn't give a damn though. You'll beat the shit out of anything that gets in your way. In this case you wanted to make things better for everyone including me." She says. "It's the most logical path. I'm working on fixing things. Maybe not to perfection but better. If anything I did get my personality from dad. All though most of it I get from grandpa. My persistence, kindness and, most of my thinking comes from him." I say.

TBC...