I trust you Hawks x reader

Breaking down together

Your POV

"I only hid behind him because he was like my protector. Normally when you were around mom wasn't too far. Touya told me try not to be around mom too much. I didn't argue with him because I didn't really want to be. She was just someone we lived with. Someone who looked mad at me. He told me he'd protect me and he did. If you looked like us then he'd be around you more. If he felt a bad feeling he'd protect you. You were perfect though nothing to worry about. We are the spitting image of him. So that's a big danger sign. Surprisingly Fuyumi was okay but she only had bits of red in her hair other than that she was okay. I'm sorry for not spending more time with you. It just didn't feel right even I didn't feel safe for myself sometimes." I say.

"So then how come you like dad more. If she was against him so much." Fuyumi asks. "I couldn't help how I looked. I was me and there wasn't anything I could do about it. Dad obviously ignored me as a kid. I saw him on tv though. How he used his flames. How people enjoyed them when he was saving the day. Even though he looked scary all the time. I saw how he made everyone happy around him but some kind of unsure. The more I saw the more intrigued I became. Especially when All Might was on. Everyone really liked him. Since hero's were so popular and everyone seemed to love him. Maybe I'd find some acceptance from someone somewhere. Where I could be notice. It'd be nice to know how he felt too. See if my efforts would make him proud. Get any kind of reaction from him. I just wanted to feel like I existed to someone. So I became a hero. It's pathetic to feel that way. To be so desperate and to want attention so much. After Touya left I was so alone and scared. I felt like I was meant to be alone to suffer forever. I felt so broken and defective. Even now sometimes I still do. Even though I have all these people around me who care about I still feel the same. Like they'll just leave me again. I'm just stuck like this forever. Because I'm always so alone. Because people feel like I'm so perfect. All because of this success. All of this work I've done just to feel at least a little better yet I still feel like trash. I didn't even care once I got all of that attention from people. I knew that they didn't really care. I was recognized by him for my hard work. Only for him to just see me as an employee. I had just given myself a job from all those years of blood sweat and tears. It was stupid of me thinking that things could actually change that there's such a thing as a bright future." I say tears rolling down my cheeks.

Shoto holds me. "There's nothing wrong with that. Feeling like crap after everything. It's hard changing your mind about life and the world after everything you've been through. There's no shame in wanting to be noticed after everything. You felt it was the best. At least you had one thing that pushed you to move on. Its only natural to want to be noticed. To feel like you want to be worthy of something at least. To want to feel happy." He says. I can feel him cry. I hold him tight.

I can here Natsuo and Fuyumi sniffling. "This sucks getting into our feelings. I see why we never wanted to talk about it." I say. "It does and I feel like shit because my feelings don't even compare to the trauma and depression you guys go through. I'm only just angry. I hate him for what he did. For just abandoning us. That's all I feel nothing more or less." He says. "I just get sad from time to time cause mom was gone. Even though she wasn't around I still cared about her. It sucked not knowing if she cared about us. Dad kept us around so it gave me some kind of hope that he cared about us. I just left it at that. I was fine with just having a nanny. Cause that's who we had the most anyway. It was nice seeing you around more though. Even though you always looked sad or had this blank stare. We're all broken in this family department. There probably isn't any fixing this. At least we were able to talk about things. I knew we'd all break down but at least we didn't go through it alone this time. I know that there has to be a breaking point. If we could just fix that a bit maybe we won't feel as bad. We'll feel as if everything in this family has to be so separate. Like we can actually talk to each other about stuff like this." Fuyumi says.

"It is better for us in away. Dad will probably never change. At least we have someone to talk about our family drama to. Someone who can't judge us and believe we're telling the truth. Cause they lived through the same hell hole of a family." Shoto says. "What are your feelings Shoto? I know that it's probably hardest for you to talk about everything." I say wiping my face. I give everyone a tissue.

"The situation with dad is I accepted the fact that I'd be going through this hell until I became a hero. Until I was perfect to him. So I just did my best. Mom was good to me until she went insane. I feel like it was my fault for her being put in the hospital. Cause I was around her so much for looking like the person she hates the most. I just had to accept the fact that life will be hell until I become a hero. Once I do I'm moving out of that house and make my own agency. I'll move by you so I can have someone to talk to. I know that he'll probably yell at me for "being rebellious" and not joining his agency. I just want to get as far away as possible." He says.

I hold him. "None of this was your fault. Just like me you couldn't help how you looked. She broke and these scars are proof of that. You we're only five how could it have been your fault. You were so good. You're innocent through all of this mess." I say. He holds me tight. I will protect you.

TBC...