billieeilish: honestly just come kiss me already *photo attached*
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tatemcrae: look at you being all bold
billieeilish: well i like you and i'm not going to hide it
billieeilish: your so beautiful
tatemcrae: *hides face* ☺️
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"wait a second what have i just read" olivia asks looking at the messages between me and billie. i widen my eyes and shove my phone down on my hotel bed.
"you weren't meant to see that" i say, putting my hands on my face. "billie likes you!" she says happily holding onto my hands and shaking me back and forth with excitement.
i laugh hearing a knock at the door standing up and going to answer it. "the fuck" i say, seeing jaden, ness and johnny at the door smiling.
"surprise bitch were here" jaden says hugging me.
i haven't really spoken about the relationship between me and him before. yeah we haven't ever got together like i told billie but that doesn't mean that we haven't done anything before. he was the first guy i slept with, and i'd be lying if i said we didn't occasionally kiss sometimes.
it's mainly just when we're bored, yeah i think he is an amazing person and very good looking but there's no real feelings there, well at least on my part.
"have you told them who has a little crush on you" olivia asks me with a smirk as they all pile on the bed.
"liv i hate you" i say, shoving my head in a pillow.
"ooo who is it" ness asks i can feel the excitement on her face without even having to look at her.
"billie" olivia tells them. i groan loudly, i hate my friend's honestly.
"oh come on it's a little crush, it's not like anything is going to happen" i say, lifting my head up, looking at them all individually seeing their little smirks.
"we better go anyway" i say grabbing my stuff ready for the show.
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we have been at the venue for a good hour, just messing about and running around. it is always so much more fun when i have friends with me. who knows what i will do on the other shows.
billie has actually just arrived too and is currently speaking to olivia on the sofa as they haven't met before.
jaden walks over to me a smirk on his face, i frown my eyebrows and he picks me up and throws me over his shoulder laughing. "dude, put me down" i say gripping hold of him.
"only if you say something good about me" he says, gripping my thigh with one hand.
"like what?" i ask. "say jaden is the best kisser ever" he tells me.
i shake my head and smile, "but it's rude to lie".
he gasps pretending to be shocked making me laugh. "ok ok jaden is the best kisser ever" i shout trying to sound convincing.
he puts me down and kisses my cheek looking happy with himself. i slap his forehead lightly and go over to sit down with billie who is now sat alone.
she looks at me with her eyebrows furrowed leaving me confused. "are you sure you two aren't dating " she questions and i smile running my hand through my hair.
"no we're not, but that doesn't mean to say nothing has happened between me and him" i admit making her frown.
she stands up and holds her hand out for me which i take, following her out of the room and taking a walk down the corridors. "so you've like kissed him or whatever?" she asks again now we have more privacy.
"well.. he was kinda the first guy i've ever slept with and to be honest we do occasionally kiss. but i personally have no feelings for him" i explain and she nods.
"when was the last time you kissed?" she questions. i look down at my feet, thinking, getting flashbacks of the moment.
"a couple days before i left for tour, we were both bored so he came over and we just ended up making out" i tell her. she stays silent for a little while, i look at her seeing her eyes scan the hallways.
"your hiding something" she says as i stare down at my feet.
i sigh. "there was one point where i thought i loved him and i thought we kinda had a thing which is kinda where my song bad ones came from. but then we moved past it all and i knew i just needed a friend" i admit and she nods. we find a random empty room and decide to go and sit in it.
i take a seat on the couch leaning forward, licking my lips and playing with my nails.
"i meant what i said on that message by the way" billie tells me. i love her confidence.
"which part, where you said you wanted to kiss me or where you said you like me?" i ask, with a smile, turning to my right look at her.
she bites her lip and moves slightly closer so she is right next to me. "both" she admits with a little smile as she looks into my eyes.
i so nervous right now, i'm trying my best not to break eye contact but my stomach is doing flips. neither of us are saying anything, both just looking at each other.
she lets out a little shy giggle and shakes her head, "yeah fuck it i'm gonna kiss you now" she says slowly leaning in.
i smile as her lips are pressed on mine, love pouring between the both of us. this feels so right. she pulls away and looks at me to see my reaction, i smile warmly making her lean in and kiss me softly once again this time with more confidence.
i frown and pull away feeling my phone vibrating in my lap. billie leaves her hand on the side of my neck as i quickly check it.
"oh i need to go to soundcheck" i say, looking at her. she nods disappointedly, i smile and peck her full lips quickly before standing up, holding onto my hand as we head to stage.
