The guilt that I feel,
Is not something I can forget.
You may have forgiven me,
But I all I can feel is regret.
Out of anger and frustration I ran away,
The most remorseful sin I have done till this day.
But you ran after me and told me not to leave,
So I turned around to find you no longer on your feet.
I tried to run to you, but I could not move.
I was weak and useless and that was all I could prove.
Your eyes were glazed over and all I could feel was numbness.
That was the moment I knew, I could never ask for your forgiveness.
Your heart was too big and kind,
You were the best anyone could ever find.
After a year in a coma, you pulled through,
And I knew I had to leave and try to forget you.
So I tried and tried to push you away,
But you kept hold of me, said you needed me to stay.
I knew I didn’t deserve you, I know I never I will.
That is why the hole pierced in my heart,
Can never, ever be filled.
