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After hearing Nari confess and break down in front of my tombstone, I had to come to the realization that there was nothing I could do for her. I wanted to hold her and try as best as I could to love her, but I couldn't. Even if I was alive, I don't know if I could either. Perhaps it wouldn't mean anything if I did try since the connection wasn't there. The feelings I had for Yunho were much stronger, and I didn't even know him yet. I've known Nari for almost my whole life.

So, Nari, I sincerely apologize for having to be your second heartbreak. I hope now you can find your real soulmate before it's too late.

As for Yunho, the more I learned about him, the more confused I became. Who was he exactly? And why was he so set on being with someone who he knew he wouldn't last with?

With that said, I confess I spent the night in his bed. Like a stalker, I followed him home and acted as if it was okay to just stay with strangers. Even though I didn't touch him at all and stayed as far away as possible, a part of me was still sickened by my behavior. But, when I woke up to find Yunho staring at my pictures that Nari gave to him, I suddenly felt as though my actions could be slightly justified. Did he like what he saw? I couldn't tell.

I stiffly laid beside him as he looked intensely at my photo. Even though his gaze wasn't physically directed towards me, my face felt extremely warm.

"Kim Aera?" he whispered.

"Yunho?" I instinctively replied. He didn't fidget. I don't know why I thought he would be able to hear me.

After moments of not budging, I decided that there was no point in staying. Yunho was clearly as confused as I was, and laying there wasn't going to give me any answers. I've completely given up. There was nothing for me to learn anymore. I was going to live mindlessly just as the psychic advised me to do. No more longing for love. No more hopeless nights.

I went back home to get some alone time. Ironic since I've only had alone time for the past week. But now, I was able to enjoy myself without the burden of looking for something I'd never find. Since Nari and Yunho were broken up, I was slightly relieved. Yes, that was selfish of me to admit. But, it was loveless love. Them leaving each other gave Nari the opportunity to find someone she could love with no regrets. And I wasn't too concerned about Yunho. Whatever life has in store for him has nothing to do with me. It never did.

After an hour of me just staring at a wall, I decided to at least be a little more productive and went on a walk. I wish I hadn't though, since my feet always made their way back to the graveyard. I don't know what drew me back here all the time. Perhaps it was the fact that this was the only part of me left on earth. It was the thing I'd be remembered for. Just a dead body whose life is told by a line on a stone. Would I have done things differently if I had known sooner that I was born without a soulmate? Would I have been able to enjoy life more without waiting to rely on someone else for my happiness?

I bent down to stare at the ground. Beneath the dirt was my whole life, just wasted away. Maybe it was a gift for me to not cross over just yet. Maybe there were things I needed to do first.

"Hey, Aera."

My thoughts were interrupted by a familiar voice. When I turned around, Yunho was standing over me, with a plastic bag in his hand.

No matter what life wanted, Yunho's actions were a contradiction. He was everywhere I went even when I didn't plan on it.

"I know we never met, but Nari showed me a picture of you and told me that we would've gotten along pretty well. So, I thought I should introduce myself. Hi, I'm Jeong Yunho."

I quickly got up from where I was to turn towards him. He looked down at my eye level, and I began to panic. How could he see me?

"I'm Kim Aera," I replied, waiting to see his reaction. He didn't move, meaning he couldn't see me at all.