control freak

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i apologize for the wait 💕

jaydas POV

i could see myself. i couldn't tell why i was seeing myself but i was. i was laying there half alivish cutting different parts of my thigh. in the bathroom. it wasn't dave's house so i knew this was recently. but why was i dreaming of it. i couldn't wake myself up ... was i dead?

i felt myself hand being rubbed. i tried opening my eyes and i as soon awake. i tried to open my eyes.

"hey love" lee said

i smiled looking around

"what happened" i said

"you passed out. the doctors are running test now to make sure it's nun serious" he said

i shook my head yes and he helped recline my seat up and got me sum apple juice. while he was gon i checked my thigh for the cuts. they were there but not bleeding anymore. he opened the door and i jumped.

"you good" he said raising his eyebrows

i shook my head yes quickly trying to cover it up.

"what is it" he asked handing me my juice

"old scar" i said clearing my throat

"i know your lying but it's okay you don't have to talk about it" he said kissing my forehead

there was a knock on the door and a doctor came in.

"okay good news. it's not as serious you just have low iron and lost a lot of blood recently but there are no medical record of you coming into a hospital for loss blood. we can find your blood type and get you pumped back up and get you sum iron pills" she said

"okay that sounds good thank you" i smiled

"do you have any questions for me" she said

"when will i be able to eat" i said

"an hour after the procedure the faster we get it done the sooner you will eat" she smiled

i shook my head and she left out. i sat up and walked around and stretched before it was time.

once they came in i sat back down while the bags of blood were hooked to my arm i just watched netflix with lee as the time went by. they said this would last an hour. i was so hungry.

"it's so weird how did you lose blood" he said

i looked at him. he deserved the truth.

"after my shower i cut on my thighs. i guess i cut too deep and my adrenaline kicked so i didn't feel it." i said

"wait why did you" he asked

"it's a a coping mechanism ... i'm in a really depressive state right now and when i have mental break downs i tend to cut myself. i couldn't tell them that tho because they would send me to a psych ward" i sighed

"i'm sorry i didn't know but now i do and i'm going to try my best to help you because cutting won't work ... can i see" he said

i shook my head yes showing him the inside of my thighs. he rubbed over them and kissed my scars.

he looked back at me and kissed my lips. i kissed back and we pulled away.

"i love you" he said

"i love you too" i smiled

later on

i was finally released and i was on my way to get sum food and my medicine. we picked it up and went home. i sat on the couch.

i had sushi dumplings rice and sum other shit i was starving.

"slow down before you choke" he said

i rolled my eyes continuing to eat. once i finished i closed it up and put it away. i sat underneath him and he rubbed my thigh.

"not too be corny or anything but you really are the best thing to happen to me" i smiled

he looked down at me and smiled. "i can say the same"

i sat on his lap facing him and leaned forward to make out with him. his hands moved around my body. i pulled him closer to me. soon we finally pulled away for a breath.

i smiled and got up i went upstairs and got ready for a bath.

"you going to take a bath then shower with me" i asked

"sure" he said getting his stuff

after that we went straight to sleep