Deadly tendencies (fuenciado)

Day 15

Every day I wake up and I hate myself.

But this morning I woke up hating reality.

I remember now that you have a girlfriend and that you aren't out of the closet and that we have a press meet today and she will be there.

She'll be kissing you.

I won't.

I'll be dying for your touch and you'll be giving my life to her.

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The press meet was awful. I didn't answer any questions and you held her hand the entire time and she played with those brown locks of yours I love tangling my fingers in.

You barely even looked at me.

Mike sat between me and tony.

He held my hand under my jacket because I knew it was hard for him to see tony in such a happy state all thanks to his date last night.

Me and Mike are just each other's safe haven. I think it's nice. He does too.

But we both still hurt. And that's the worst part.

It always hurts.