I didn't go to band practice today.
I mean you guys didn't need me. I don't do anything but strum chords that I often mess up on anyway.
I would say I didn't go because I've caught a cold, or because I had a family emergency. But the truth is I didn't want to face you.
I didn't want to look into your eyes and fall in love all over again, as I do everyday. And I didn't want to play 'kissing in cars' with you because I'd fall apart. And I sure as hell didn't want to hear your voice say you love her.
Its not that I didn't want to see you but god I couldn't face you.
tony texted me telling me you guys missed me. But I think it was just to comfort me.
I barely got out of bed today.
I haven't been eating.
I keep writing songs.
I keep crying.
Why do I let you do this to me?
YOU ARE READING
Deadly tendencies (fuenciado)
FanfictionVic, i'm writing to you even though i know you'll never read it. i love you and i just want it to be enough. Trigger warning: self harm and blood
