Greasy Love Part Three (Outsiders Fan-fic)

Broken pieces

'Dear Dylan, 
I know you're not gonna listen to this or even read this, but know that I'm sorry and that I care. I love you Dylan...'

That's all I read, that's all that I can read because, we've been in a broken relationship for years, but we've always pushed it past us, I'm just not sure if we can push past this too. I'm eight months and three weeks pregnant, ready to pop any day whilst he's fight a war. I don't know if I can do this or not. A single tear rolls down my eye before I walk out of the house.
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I knock on Emily's door and wait for her to answer. It's takes a while and the more I stand there the more I cry, but eventually Johnny opens the door. As soon as he sees the state I'm in he brings me in for a tight hug, "Dylan, what's wrong?"

I look up at him, I not real close to Johnny or Emily, but they're in the gang and they give the best advice so whenever I'm hurting I come here, "So-so-so-da-p-p-po-pop."

He looks at me with sympathy not knowing how I'm going to end this sentence as I stopped after his name to break down in tears. He speaks quietly and softly just like when I first met him, "Sodapop what sweetie?"

"He's staying in longer," I gasp out.

"Oh Dylan, I'm so sorry," he replies hugging me a little tighter.

"I don't know what to do anymore," I sob. "He's gone for so long and it was only like six more months. Only another half a year."

"I know, Dylan," Johnny soothes.

I look up at him crying, "Johnny?'

"Yea, Dyl," he replies looking at me in the eyes.

 "Why do you love me?" I ask him. "Why does the gang love me?"

"Because, Dylan you and Lexi are awesome. You two are the best things that happened to the gang."

"Well I agree that Lexi is, but not me."

"Why do you think that Dylan?"

"Because, all I bring is drama."

"Well yes, but you also bring, happiness, laughter, love, kids, a bigger family, memories, jokes, weird faces, tears, and you're the first girl in the gang. You're number one Dylan. You're the first one ever. You're very special to us and we love you."

"Yea, but you guys have so many girls, you don't need me anymore."

"We will always need you. We all love you Dylan."

"It just hurts Johnny. It hurts so bad," I sob. "He left me for another year and for his first love. He's gonna miss the first year of our kid's lives and for his first love."

"Yea, you're right and it sucks, but I don't think he did it for Sandy."

"What?"

"Sodapop, loves being in the military. He'll never admit that to you because, he doesn't want to upset you, but he's good at it.When he saw Sandy's name, it was probably just an excuse to stay another year. He loves it out because, he feels like he's protecting you."

"Oh my god!"

"What?"

"I gotta go!
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'Dear Dylan, 
I know you're not gonna listen to this or even read this, but know that I'm sorry and that I care. I love you Dylan and I didn't only do this for Sandy. I know I broke our relationship and I know I broke your trust, our promise, and everything else, but I'm protecting you. I'm protecting the gang, Izzy, Gabby, and my wonderful wife. I love you Dylan and I'm so sorry but I had to do it.
Sodapop'