Beyond Death

EP 21

What Wei Wuxian said: "I like you so much!"The sudden thunder exploded thousands of flowers in Lan Wangji's heart,His head was full of flowers flying all over the sky, colorful,The fluttering flowers blocked the mouth and nose,The fragrance of flowers entered his throat, he couldn't breathe or think,He just felt the heat, like a tide, rushing from the bottom of the heart to face,The sound of heartbeat deafened his eardrums like a tumultuous wave.The torrent of nowhere to vent boiled behind the ears,The eyesight Looking at Wei Wuxian's eyes,bursted into flame rushing to the sky instantly.But Wei Wuxian just smiled.Looking at him quietly,Between the eyebrows, there seemed to be thousands of amorous feelings fluttering.Lan Wangji stood there,The cold and frosty look,Was written into a kind of warmth like spring,The brilliance in the eyes was overflowing and shining,Making the coldness less.Although it was just a momentary wandering,Little girl Ruolan had approached Lan Wangji,Looking up in doubt,Shouted twice: "Young Master, Young Master?"Seeing that he didn't seem to recover,So she stretched hand to pull his sleeve.Suddenly, the alarm bell rang,Lan Wangji was brought back from the absence,He glanced at Ruolan,Pulled the sleeves gently from the girl's hand and put them down,By the way, walked two steps to the door,Ruolan followed two steps toward the door.Seeing that she wouldn't find Wei Wuxian in the interior again,Lan Wangji said to Ruolan:"Please come over, I will write the names of some dishes,Please tell the kitchen to prepare. "Ruo Lan smiled and agreed.Briskly took the inkstone and ink,Said to Lan Wangji: "I'll grind ink for Young Master."Without waiting for Lan Wangji to speak, she began doing.Watching Lan Wangji roll out rice paper while grinding.Since she didn't go to the inner room, Lan Wangji didn't worry much.Although this little girl was too clingy,But there was no place to blame,There was no way to send her away for a while,So he had to wait for her to grind ink,Watching Lan Wangji write.Lan Wangji thought about Wei Wuxian.He had not clamed down yet after being shocked by the words,He wrote a few dish names ignorantly,Not seeing what was written,He handed it to Ruolan.Ruolan opened an admired smile and said:"Young Master, your handwriting is so beautiful!"Lan Wangji said, "Please take it and prepare.After it's done, send to the room. ""Okay. But Young Master, can you teach me how to write?Lan'er really want to write well as you. "The little girl wanted to be close more,Lan Wangji had to say, "Please hurry up.Don't delay. "Ruolan was reluctant to turn back downstairs.Lan Wangji turned back behind the screen,While Wei Wuxian was jumping from the screen to the couch.Making the picture screen shaking,With an expression of "I know everything",Which made Lan Wangji not understand.He tried to make himself walk as steady as possible,But it seemed to walk hard all the way to the couch,Looking condescendingly at Wei Wuxian's face,His chest undulated violently,He suppressed the desire to overthrow Wei Wuxian,Said: "What did you just say to me?"Wei Wuxian's bright pupils flickered like fireworks,But deliberately made a serious look,Said: "I said that little girl,was clearly telling you: I like you very much. "This misunderstanding was obviously too big to exceed Lan Wangji's expectations.Such as tons of frost and snow pressureing, thousands miles of cliffs collapsed,Lan Wangji's body shook suddenly.couldn't help taking a step back,Qi and blood rolled in his chest, a touch of fishy sweetness rose in his throat,Suddenly it went black, "What?"Lan Wangji's throat was dumb, and he uttered the words very slowly.He open eyes blankly,But found that he couldn't see anything.In a short period of time, he experienced the extreme joy and sadness thoroughly.Years of lovesickness and bittery wrapped in the wind and snow rushed to him.He suddenly lost heart for a while,Lan Wangji took another step back before he could barely stand firm.With eyes closed, he struggled through these few excitements.Wei Wuxian saw that Lan Wangji looked abnormal.But he couldn't think of the pain and confusion in his heart.He thought that he was shy and embarrassed,So he said briskly: "What's the matter? Shy?Lan Zhan, are you still so shy?Let me tell you, you have handsome look, high cultivatation,good family background, great reputation,If I have a daughter, I would let her marry you! ""Nonsense!" Lan Wangji refused without any hesitation.Wei Wuxian smiled and said, "Why nonsense?The marriage of men and women is justified,Do you think that I have no daughter, right?"Lan Wangji was almost dumbfounded.He couldn't say it clearly, had to turn around,planned to go outside to be alone.Unexpectedly, Wei Wuxian changed his ridiculous tone.Said in a very light voice:"Lan Zhan, have you married these years?"Lan Wangji stopped in an instant.Although Wei Wuxian tried his best to speak calmly,But Lan Wangji still heard a slight tremor in his voice.This slight tremor,Somehow, it was like an iron lottery stimulating the soul,Licking his heart.Lan Wangji wanted to turn back,But Wei Wuxian said:"Don't look back, just tell me."There was an emotion that Lan Wangji couldn't understand in the indisputable decision. He did not look back,Because in an instant, some moisture filled the eyes along the chest,After a pause, Lan Wangji said in a deep voice, "No."He heard an uncontrollable sigh behind him."Then, is there anyone you like?"A short silence is endless,Then came Wei Wuxian's modified voice with great concentration. "Yes." Definitely, without hesitation,But Wei Ying, don't you know?Or do you think that I will love others?"How much do you like?" After another silence,No amount of concentration couldn suppress the mixed feelings in this sentence. "Deep in bones and blood, Never change no matter life and death."Lan Wangji raised a corner of his mouth,A drop of water dipped into the tip of the tongue along the lips, slightly salty and bitter.If three years ago, those vows that were hot like lava rushing,were a momentary impulse to taste lovesickness,Then walking through 33 whip marks and three thousand heart marks,Separation of death and loneliness in confinement,I stood in front of you again,Was I qualified to say these words?Lan Wangji couldn't hear the response behind him for a while,He didn't dare to turn his head,Because there was still some remaining self-esteem that needed to be guarded,He was really powerless to show precious affection frankly,in the eyes that could not hold the tender.For a long time,Long enought that Lan Wangji felt the water mist had condensed into sand on his face.Then it turns into powder with heavy breathing,Dispersing in the air,Making everything in the vision blurred and hazy."Lan Zhan..."Wei Wuxian's voice seemed to float from a distant horizon.Not like the voice of a real person,"Coincidentally, I also like a person,Maybe not so much as you like,I just know that in my hardest days,I'm happy just thinking of him...But what a pity,When I understood,I can't get to him anymore. "Neither accident nor expectation,Was it that person?It was explanation and response,after another confession three years later.The first time he heard Wei Wuxian personally talk about his affection for another person,Lan Wangji didn't feel the pain anymore,But he could not hold the smelly sweetness,of the throat anymore,Use fingers to wipe the sticky spill from the corner of mouth,Quietly hide in the sleeve,Swallowed the love and hate,the sadness of the past yearsTogether with heart blood,He went over the screen and out of Wei Wuxian's sight.As if being touched so hard,Wei Wuxian also quietly nestled on the couch in the inner room.They were separated by a rough craftsmanship screen,As if separated by mountain of ten thousands miles high, without saying a word.Until there was another knock on the door,Ruolan shouted crisply: "Young Master, I an bringing you the food you want."The enthusiasm of the little girl broke the embarrassing silence in the house,The scent of the food finally washed away the solemnity in the face of Lan Wangji,He glanced at the red dishes,Seriously thanked to Ruolan,Then stood up,Forcing the little girl out of the room with a cold face.Ruolan stood out of the door,the immature voice couldn't hide the worry:"Young Master, if you are worried about the people downstairs,I will take care for you,If anything happens, I will tell you immediately. "Until Lan Wangji answered "Thank you much."Then she went downstairs.Lan Wangji pushed the only bowl and chopstickes to the other side of the table,Said: "Wei Ying, come over for dinner."Small town shop, vulgar things,But the ebony chopsticks, steamed rice, white porcelain bowls and dishes were all clean,The dishes were also made in a decent way,Red hot chili, green onion leaves,The yellow-orange garlic cloves exude the miscellaneous spicy fragrance that the world should have.Wei Wuxian walked out slowly from inside.Neither of them tacitly did not look at each other's face,Lan Wangji walked a few steps towards the door.Pulling the latch open, he said as he left the house:"You eat first, I'll go down and get a pair of chopsticks."Before Wei Wuxian could answer,The back of the black hair and white coat swayed a few times, and he flashed out.Lan Wangji's heart was empty and did not have the edge,There was an endless dark abyss in the middle,No pain, but helpless.The body was like a marionette,Every footstep was like stepping on cotton,There was only a dozen steps from the second floor to the first floor,He seemed to have gone through the heat and cold throughout the four seasons.

Writer: Shenfen(China), https://shenfen283.lofter.com/
Translator: Chou Langshi, for more stories and comics, please visit https://www.patreon.com/wangxianlove