Journal of the Amnesiac Wizard: A Setosorcerer/FyreUk/GoldSolace Story

- Entry #14: Lord Mianite -

-- Entry #14: ? - ? --

Still don't know the date even though we are back on the Overworld. After walking for about three hours, we took a break. We are near the teleport gate to the Temple of Mianite. I know that he is probably going to have a bad reaction to the Fyre Brothers. But I'm not willing to force them to stay behind.

I wonder what Mianite is like. According to Ianite, Mianite is the big brother, the oldest. He is meant to ensure the protection of humans. He is the God of the Overworld. Surely, he is able to be reasoned with...who am I kidding? I shouldn't expect anyone to be good to reason with. I should expect everyone to be unreasonable until proven otherwise.

Well, I hope talking to Mianite won't be difficult at least. I do expect him to at least hear me out given his history with the Guardians. That is all I can do is hope.

What I am nervous about is meeting Dianite, I know it will happen. Ianite pointed out how Dianite deeply respects the Guardians, sees them as cherished friends. But given his reputation and all, I can't help but be nervous about meeting him.

Granted, I am a champion of the most powerful god, the God of Creation. So technically speaking, no god should make me nervous since I know Notch. But...I don't remember Notch that well yet due to my stupid memory problem.

When I talked with him back at the academy, through Riley, I could tell that we have a deep bond that has been thoroughly tested with loyalty and trust through many hardships. He is a man I know I can stake my life on, but something is wrong. Something he isn't telling me. Well, he wasn't and still isn't telling me a lot of things. He never answered any questions that pertained to who I was...only to what happened to me before ending up here in Vienna.

The map, it hasn't changed since the addition of the frontlines and the extension of the Malus Clan territory. I'm worried...

Roylra is now owned by the Malus Clan, Solace's capital has been lost. Capital cities are vital, this blow to Solace could be fatal. But there is still hope for as long as Solace remains on the map. I've been checking the map more than I should because I'm afraid to find Solace gone.

I should probably be worrying over Alius Clan since it is my homeland and the Wizard Territory since I am a wizard. And yet, I'm finding myself distraught over finding Solace no more. Any little change to Solace's borders makes me grit my teeth and a surge of anger go through me.

It's strange...Solace is clearly human territory. And from what I can remember over the years, my perspective on humanity changed various times.

From caring to not caring, and back to caring.

I did not care that I had slaughtered a massive amount of humans from the memories with Anna.

I rode into battle alongside humans at that battle where Hugh and the others were present.

I gave little regard for my own life, so much so, that I did not care that humans were about to burn me alive. I remember looking at them with disdain before they lit the fires, so I had a negative view of them.

And then there is Brice, Ty, Bodil, the king...

I care greatly about what happens to them, to the humans...but what made me lose faith in humanity so many times, and what was it that restored it each time?

I stop writing when the wet pages started to annoy me. It has been raining for a while now. I look up at the sky, frowning at the dark clouds looming overhead. I close my journal, putting it back in my bag before pulling my hood down lower. Kala is laying beside me, my blanket placed over her so she can stay as dry as possible. Unfortunately, we couldn't find shelter, so we are all stuck out in the rain.