Scars

Chapter 29

Erika's POV: I was walking to Starbucks to get some coffee and I saw Lucas sitting on the side of the road. I went near him.

Erika: There are plenty of chairs inside - he chuckled - Are you ok?

Lucas: Yeah, I'm good

Erika: Lucas..

Lucas: Yes? - he said was looking at the floor

Erika: I know I've only known you for like half an year.. but you can trust me. - he looked at me

Lucas: I do trust you Rik. Doesn't matter if it has been 6 years or 6 months or 6 days.

Erika: Good - I said smiling - Then tell me

Lucas: I was just lost in my thoughts

Erika: What you're thinking about? - he looked down again - Or who? - he kinda smiled - Ooohhh ok. Chloe then - he chuckled - Why don't you just ask her out?

Lucas: I don't want to hurt her again

Erika: Again? - he sighed

Lucas: So last year, I asked her out on spring break. I wasn't planning on dating her, it's not really my thing. And then she flipped my world upside down

Erika: Awwww. But how did you hurt her?

Lucas: She had an ex that cheated on her. A lot. She forgave him twice and on the third time that she found out, she left. So she had some trust issues.

Erika: Understandable

Lucas: Well.. we dated from like March to august. Give it or take it

Erika: Ok - he went silent - And?

Lucas: I promised I wouldn't leave.. and I did.. and she got hurt..

Erika: What are you talking about?

Lucas: There was this end of the summer type of party. Everyone went. We had a few arguments that week because she got jealous over some girls, at a party also.

I was looking at him and I thought he was about to start crying. I put my arm around his shoulder and rested my chin on his shoulder.

Erika: It's ok.. - he took a deep breath

Lucas: That night, she said some stuff about the girls again and I said I wasn't going to waste my time listening to stupid jealousy. I went near my friends.. we had a great time. By the end of the party, it was like 5am, I was looking for her. And I couldn't find her. After an hour or so, I found her beaten up in one of the tents...

Erika: Oh my god.. But you found out who did it?

Lucas: Yeah, I bit the shit out of him, he stood in the hospital for a week and never told the police or anyone who did that to him.

Erika: That's horrible.. - he was looking at the floor again - Lucas.. it was horrible.. but it wasn't your fault..

Lucas: I shouldn't have left her. I should have been there..

Erika: You can't be around everyone all the time. You can't control everything..

Lucas: I should have been there.

Erika: Does she blame you?

Lucas: I don't know..

Erika: Well I don't know her as well as you do but I'm sure she doesn't blame you. It wasn't your fault

Lucas: It was my responsibility, I should have been there.

Erika: K.. and then what y'all broke up?

Lucas: No. Then she decided she wanted to change her life. She went to therapy, she started believing more in her, she started being the Chloe you know. And I guess in a certain point she needed her time to grow I guess

Erika: Ok. Did you listen to yourself?

Lucas: Yeah

Erika: Then how does that connects to her beating up?.

Lucas: She's good now, she's ok. Going through something like that again would break her. She doesn't deserve that..

Erika: Lucas..

Lucas: It's true

Erika: First of all, it wouldn't break her. She's very strong. Second, you can't protect everyone all the time.

Lucas: I can try.

Erika: Lucas. You're not Superman, and even Superman can't protect everyone all the time. - he shrugged

Erika: Ok look.. I get it, you felt responsible..

Lucas: Again..

Erika: What you mean again?

Lucas: It was my idea.. they should have a weekend for themselves.. it was because of me they went on that trip..

Erika: Lucas.. hey.. - I made him look at me - It wasn't your fault. Neither your parents accident, neither what happened with Chloe. - a tear rolled down his cheek - It was a horrible accident but it wasn't your fault

Lucas: They wouldn't have been on the plane.. it's ok, I know they're better than we are. But it's true. It was my fault

Erika: No it wasn't. If I ask you to go get my wallet on my car across the street and a car pass and hits you and you break your leg, it would be my fault?

Lucas: No! Of course not

Erika: It's the same thing. - he sighed - You go hard on yourself when you hurt people you care about.. we all hurt people, consciously or unconsciously.. the ones that stay are the ones that know you're worth hurting for. - he looked at me

Lucas: Huh?

Erika: Look at us. When I first met you, I said some horrible things. But you forgave me. You got hurt, but you got over it.

Lucas: Yeah you just made one bad choice doesn't mean you're a bad person.

Erika: Ok.. now apply that on everything else. - he was quiet for a minute looking at nothing

Lucas: It wasn't my fault?..

Erika: No. - he sighed again and smiled at me. We hugged

Lucas: Thank you Rik

Erika: Whenever you need, I'm here.

Lucas: Same

We did our little hand shake and went inside to grab some coffee.
It broke my heart a little bit. Lucas is the kind of guy that is always happy and joking around and making other people smile, and then we think he's ok, he's happy. And things like this go on in his head..
I'm just glad he talked to me.

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