This Kiss

Chapter 3

Olivia stood in the middle of the living room somewhere between shocked, confused, and pissed off. She sat on the couch slowly replaying the last several minutes in her mind. She kissed me, she told me she is in love with me, then she left. She closed her eyes, let out a long slow breath, and then silently wept.

Natalia was driving on auto pilot to the one place she needed to be. She needed to think. She needed to come to an understanding of what loving Olivia meant. The twenty minute drive seemed to take less then a minute. She pulled into the church parking lot, turned off the engine, and bounded up the stairs. As she reached for the handle on the oak door something astounding happened. She was hit with a revolution. It's not the churches approval she needed. It's gods.

She turned and walked down the church steps and towards the graveyard. Approaching Gus' grave she gently lowered herself to the ground. Running her hand over the cold plate with Gus' name on it she began to speak.

"Hi Nicky. Oh Nicky what am I going to do? I know I love Olivia. I know I want to be with her and Emma and have this family we are building but I am so afraid. I know God is love. He wouldn't give me this love if I wasn't supposed to act in it. He wouldn't allow me to feel so much and then expect me to walk away. But that's what I did. Oh Nicky, Olivia must be so confused thinking I can't do this. Oh god what did I just do. I have to go. I have get back to her. Bye Nicky."

Running towards the car Natalia quickly sent off a text. I'm coming home. N. Rivera.

Olivia was pulled from the edges of a crying induced sleep by the chime of her phone alerting her of a text. She's coming home but for what. Is this both the beginning and the end? Is this where my heart officially breaks? Is this ......

All of the sudden Olivia couldn't breathe. She was having a panic attack she couldn't stop it. She clutched her chest as she fell to the floor. Fear gripping her as the world went black.

Natalia reached the farmhouse with a renewed spirit. On the drive home she prayed. Prayed to thank God for this love. Prayed that she could make Olivia understand why she left. Prayed for forgiveness for running out on the women she loves. Reaching the porch she pulled out her keys and opened the door to see Olivia sprawled on the floor pale and motionless.

"OLIVIA! OLIVIA!" She rushed to her side feeling for a pulse. Finding a weak one she was slightly relieved. Dialing 911 she relayed what was going on and then returned to Olivia's side. Stroking her hair and speaking softly waiting for help to arrive.

After what seemed like forever she heard sirens approaching and ran to the door. Leaving it open so they could come right in and she returned to Olivia.

Remy burst through the door. "What happened?"

"I...I don't know. I was....I was out and when I came home here she was. Oh my god oh my god." She stuttered. "Oh god Remy you have to help her! I can't lose her."

"Natalia you need to calm down so I can concentrate on Olivia."

After getting her vitals Olivia was loaded up and taken to Cedars. Natalia following close behind.

Walking into Cedars Natalia was met by Rick. "Rick where is she? How is she? Take me to her."

"Relax Natalia. It was just a panic attack. She is fine. She is being set up in a room so I can monitor her for awhile then I will take you back." Rick calmly explained. "So what happened? Where you two fighting or something?"

"No not exactly. I did something a little stupid and I think I really scared her. Oh.... This is all my fault." Natalia said her voice laced with guilt.