This Kiss

Chapter 34

Natalia slowed and broke their kiss, Taking Olivia's hand and leading her to sit on the front lawn. Taking her hand into her lap, she looked into those beautiful sea-green eyes. "I miss this. I miss everything about us."

"You know I think about you all the time. I can't think about anything else."

"I can't either. I hate seeing you around every corner and not touching you, not kissing you."

"Me too. When I'm away from you, I wait for you to call until I can't take it anymore and I just call you."

"Sometimes I just need your voice and I call and I listen to your voice mail, and then I hang up. That's so embarrassing."

Olivia leaned to lay her head on Natalia's shoulder, Natalia brought a hand to the back of her neck, holding her close. Olivia kissed her neck. "I think that's wonderful."

"But I want this. I want this all the time, you know. And I..."

"Right now, we have to give up some things, so we can be together, and keep Rafe happy."

"I don't wanna give up anything. I want all of it. I want all of the things that people in love share. What we have been sharing. I want it back."

"I want that too."

Natalia raised her hand to caress the side of Olivia's face, gazing at her with longing. Olivia brought her hand to her lips, kissing the palm. The older woman starred at the woman she loved. "God you are so beautiful."

"You make me feel beautiful when you look at me like that. I could sit here, I mean forever, and just stare at you. And I'd be completely content."

"You know being near you is all I need to. Not that I don't want to hold you and let you know how I feel, I just, I want it to be okay. For all of us."

"It will. I mean, I'm not afraid. Are you? Afraid?"

"I'm terrified."

"Me too, I am but, I love you, and, we'll figure it out. We'll tell him soon. We'll get us back."

The Latina moved closer, bringing their foreheads together. Olivia nuzzled against her, and then brought their lips together. Kissing the love of her life with all the love she felt for her. They kissed slow and deep. Long and passionate. Unaware that across the pasture, Rafe was watching.

Rafe watched them from across the lawn. He watched them stare at each other lovingly. Watched as they gave one another tender touches and sweet caresses. He watched them smile and laugh together, saw them look at each other as if no one else in the world existed. He observed them let the world fall away and get lost in each other. Then he stared in awe as they shared a lovers kiss. He watched his mother kiss Olivia like he had never seen her kiss another. He could no longer deny what he been seeing. He had been trying to pretend that the longing glances and soft touches, the whispered 'I love yous' were merely close friends conveying their gratitude. He ignored hearing Olivia slip into his mother's room every night. He had been successfully lying to himself, but now, seeing this, that was no longer an option. He wanted to accept it. He knows his mother is happier then he has ever seen her. He can't deny that Olivia loves her, that she treats her right, but he just can't. This is Olivia Spencer, the woman who took everything from him and his mother not so long ago. The woman who stole his father's heart. His blood ran hot and his anger raged inside him. He went for another short run to clear his head and clam down before he confronted his mother.

The women sat, lost in their own bubble. Olivia placed a hand on Natalia's cheek, smiling broadly. "I never thought I could have anything like this. I certainly didn't do anything to deserve this."