FORELSKET ( Inumaki Toge X Reader )

21.

"Wait, are you blushing? Y/N-chan?" He said, trying to imitate what I said a while ago.

I tried covering my face using my hands, but he wanted to remove it.

"What? No!" I said, then looked away.

"Ah, senpai! Your phone is still recording!" I added to redirect his attention elsewhere.

He got up, then grabbed his phone, and ended the video.

"Is it okay to you if I'll post some clips on my insta?" Toge-senpai asked.

I nodded, then set up my tv again to watch MHA. The both of us sat down in my bed, he's using his phone while I'm watching. A few minutes later, my phone received a notification, a tagged video on Instagram.

I paused what I'm watching and opened my phone. I leaned my head on his shoulder while he hugged me. I opened my insta to check the vid.

While watching our video, I sighed. I felt my heart beating faster than usual. He hugged me tighter. I read some comments.

@nobara.kugi_ ASDFGHSJS YOU SANG FOR INUMAKI-SENPAI, AND YOU DIDN'T INVITE US?!
@makizxx Whipped af
@fushiguro.megumi cute but still unfair
@panda_is_not_a_panda OUR TOGE IS NOW A BIG BOY
@user123 your gf?
@aoitodo @Y/N I didn't know you're in Tokyo! I'll transfer.
@n.kamo @y/n at least try to read my messages sometimes

Other comments are about us being cute together and about him, being handsome as usual. Wow, he has a lot of fangirls!

"You know Todo-san?" He asked
"Uhm, no. But I think I saw his name on my dms," I answered truthfully
"He's a student from Kyoto."
"Ohhh, so I'll be able to meet him at the Goodwill arc!"

He nodded. The two of us continued watching MHA. Sometimes, I'm fangirling over Bakugou, but he'll cover my eyes.

It is now 11:30 in the evening, and we decided to call it a night. I escorted him to my door.

"Good night, Toge-senpai," I said, waving at him.

He moved closer to me.

"Good night Y/N-chan," he said, then kissed my forehead.

I only came back to my senses when he tapped my shoulder.

"I'll go now. See you tomorrow!" He said, then went back to his room.

I went back inside my room, still trying to process what just happened.

*
"Fushiguro, Kugisaki, Y/N, why did you leave me?"

"Y-Yuji?" I said as I tried to reach him.

I started walking in his direction.

"I'm sorry, it's all my fault because I am weak!" I said

I was about to hug him when the special grade cursed spirit suddenly appear behind Yuji.

I saw it pulling Yuji away from us.

*

TW: Self-harm

"Yuji!" I shouted but then really that it was a dream.

I looked at my bedside table only to find out that it is just 3 in the morning.

Thankfully, the rooms here are soundproof.

I continued sobbing, thinking about what happened back then.

It's all my fault. It's all my fault. It's all my fault.
If only I were strong enough to protect them.

My mind was clouded with thoughts that I didn't realize that I am holding a cutter against my wrist.

I felt a pang of pain. I saw my wound, not deep enough to kill myself, but enough to make myself feel alive.

I don't want to sleep. I can't sleep.

I decided to take a bath, cleaned my fresh wound, and wrapped it into a bandage.

I wore a loose peach hoodie to hide it, then plain black training trousers. I didn't blow dry my hair. Then I wore my specs because I remember that I'll be training with my weapon again.

I grabbed my phone and put my Airpods in my ear, blasting the music on high volume.

I looked at the clock, 5:30 AM.

I decided to go to the training grounds carefully, trying not to wake everyone else. After arriving, it was still dark, so I decided to take laps of jog around the field. After three laps, the sun was already up but no signs of other people.

6:30 AM, One hour before the training.

I started shooting the arrows, trying to concentrate. The music is still blasting on my AirPods. I was so oblivious of my surroundings that I didn't even notice that everyone already arrived.

I don't want to talk to them. They might notice my bloodshot eyes and my wound.

I only came back to my senses when someone tapped my shoulder.

It was Das. He made me face him, and in an instant, I immediately put both my hands behind my back. I noticed that everyone else is looking at us, confused about my actions.

Dad removed the AirPods from my ear, and he put his blindfold down to his neck. He looks so serious.

"Give. Me. Your. Hands." He said

No, I don't want to. The others are looking.

I look directly into his eyes, pleading.

He sighed then gently grabbed my arms. He raised the sleeves of my hoodie, revealing the bandaged wound.

I heard Nobara gasped from my left. I looked down, trying to avoid any eye contact. My dad hugged me, and in an instant, my tears fell.

"I'm sorry." I keep repeating the same line.

"Shhh, I'm sorry I'm not here to keep an eye on you." He said

"Please get me out of here," I pleaded, and in an instant, our surroundings changed.