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Cold rainy night

I stirred around a bit before opening my eyes to see Fuckshit laying on his stomach facing me and his messy blonde hair was kinda covering his face, I moved it a bit and kissed his cheek before he groaned a little and opened his eyes slowly.

"hey sleepyhead..."

"morning cutie, you sleep alright?"

"i slept fine, you sleep okay?"

He nodded and yawned before moving his hair out of his eyes, he wasn't wearing a shirt anymore and he ended up being really cold so he nuzzled up with me.

"you're really warm ma..."

He mumbled into my chest before I wrapped my arms around his waist, I kinda zoned out for a while thinking about random shit including Scott and my parents.

I was in a trance for a while before Fuckshit moved his hand in front of my face, apparently I had been crying because he cupped his hands on my cheeks and wiped my tears off.

"aye...."

I looked up at him and he kissed my forehead before putting his chin on top of my head,

"you don't need to act tough shawty..."

I nodded and he mumbled

"come here..."

He pulled me into a hug and that's what made me cry even more, but I was happy. Happy that I have him, he's always been there for me. He had me on his lap and had his arms wrapped around my waist.

He had his chin on top of my head and he mumbled something that I couldn't make out,

"what?"

"aris, you're really holdin' on tight to me."

I soon realized that I was and I let go before I mumbled sorry,

"hey..."

I looked up at him and he said quietly

"what's wrong?"

"i'm just afraid that you're gonna leave, just like everyone else did in my life..."

I felt him kiss my forehead before saying softly

"never.... i will never leave you like that, it'll cause both of us too much shit..."

His voice began to drag out and I thought I was falling asleep but I remember the crash again, I would do that sometimes but this time I just remembered the pained look on his face when he saw me. What he did hurt me but it was an accident, right?

"aris?"

I looked back at him and his eyes were glossy,

"i love you, like so fucking much."

"i love you too...."

He smiled softly and kissed my cheek before placing his forehead on mine, I pecked his lips and he smiled before tears fell from his eyes. He pulled me back to lay down with him and I heard rain drops against his window, they slowly got heavier and I heard thunder in the distance.

I hated thunderstorms, still reminds me of my mom leaving me alone at home while she went to go fuck some guy and Scott was at work. She did it since I was four or something, still hate her.

One huge flash of lighting and a huge clap of thunder struck scared the shit out of me which caused me to bury my head into Fuckshit's chest, he hugged me tightly and mumbled

"don't worry mamas, you're safe..."

He pulled the blankets up to my shoulders which was probably at his upper chest, he slipped his hands under my shirt and wrapped them around my stomach.

I didn't like how I looked and my mom made me think I was unattractive all the time so it was a habit of mine to suck in my stomach, he noticed this and said

"why do you suck in yo stomach?"

"i don't really look pretty-"

"no aris, i don't know who made you think that but you are so fucking pretty. you're body is perfect; your thighs, your stomach, your beautiful smile along with your face, you look so beautiful and out of all the girls I've been with you are the one I actually have feelings for."

"r-really?"

"yes ma, you are my princess and i will always be there for you."

I couldn't keep my smile hidden but I tried to hide it in the blankets, he chuckled and kissed my forehead before another clap of thunder made me flinch.

He kept his hands wrapped around my stomach and I let my stomach go, he smiled softly and kissed my cheek before mumbling in my ear

"you're so beautiful..."

He made me smile and I drifted off to sleep.

*Fuckshits POV*

She fell asleep after a while and the thunder calmed down, she was to the right of me and cuddled up in the blankets with me.

I really wish I could make her happy but she's going through a lot right now, I just want her to be happy again.

I fell asleep for a while before I woke up to my mom pulling up, I didn't care about it. Syd was on her side facing me but she had tears on her cheeks, I moved her messy hair and wrapped her up in my arms.

She moved around a little and moaned softly before she started to wake up, I kissed her cheek before whispering

"shh, go back to sleep love."

She nodded faintly so I knew she was like half awake. I wiped the tears off her cheeks, my mom came in after that and said quietly

"olan, this is another hook-up?"

"nah, she's my girl. she's been asleep for a while..."

She smiled and came over to me before kissing my forehead,

"okay, sleep well honey..."

She smiled and walked out closing the door behind her, I looked over at syd again and kissed her cheek before keeping her tightly wrapped in my arms.

"i love you so much mamas..."

"i love you too fuckface....."

I heard her voice say in the blankets, I smiled and kept my arms around her waist. Maybe things will get better?