Blurred Clarity| Yoongi (SUGA) Oneshots

Trust is Terrifying, Just Like the World~

8.6k words. Taegi (and 2 instances of evil Hobi and Jin)

Warnings: Abortion, several instances of rape, parental disapproval (of abortion), sexual trauma, Yoongi has a vagina (omega), A/B/O

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Yoongi hates alphas. He'll never have an alpha as his mate. He'll never probably date one again. Everything bad that's happened in his life was because of an alpha. He hasn't met one that's been really nice since he was in secondary school. He'd rather spend his time with beta's and omegas than alpha's. 

He's been hurt far too many times, by far too many alphas to trust one again.

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Yoongi has only ever spent one heat with an alpha. He was nineteen at the time. He'd had boyfriends before then, and all of them had been alphas. But when his heat rolled around he hadn't been ready to spend it with them yet, or he felt like it was too intimate to do for people so young.

He knew girls that spent their heats with their boyfriends when they were only fifteen, but Yoongi was not one of those types of people. They could do what they wanted, but Yoongi felt like it was too early for heat sex at that age. He wasn't a prude, he lost his virginity at age fifteen. But he hadn't had heat sex.

You get one heat, every three months.

Seokjin, Kim Seokjin was the name of the alpha he spent his heat with. He'd been with Seokjin for 8 months when his third heat of the relationship came around. Him and Seokjin and been moving pretty fast, but Yoongi was head over heels for the alpha, and ready to spend his heat with him.

When he was only in preheat, and not in heat yet, staying over at Jin's apartment and sitting under a nest of Jin's clothes he made it very clear. Jin had better fucking use a condom. There were condoms that expanded to fit around popped knots, and Seokjin needed to wear one. Jin assured him that he would wear one when they had sex.

Yoongi doesn't remember much of the actual heat. He goes pretty much delusional, he falls into this state where the only thing that matters to him is cumming. Cumming on an alpha's knot or with his own fingers or toys, it doesn't matter. That's what he wants, even if his inner omega keens for an actual knot.

So having that knot, and being fucked by an alpha, he was barely coherent for the entire heat. He remembers bits and pieces, like Seokjins big cock making him scream and then being choked like a bitch (which he loved), he remembers being pounded into the mattress multiple times, he remembers feeling sated once he got a knot and cumming so many times that he passed out.

That was the only bearable heat Yoongi ever had. He hadn't been in pain the entire time, because he was too busy getting railed into oblivion.

Yoongi had loved it. And Yoongi loved his boyfriend, so he continued on with his life, finishing up his studies and looking for a job.

The regret settled in four weeks later, when Yoongi woke up in the morning horribly nauseous. He ended up throwing up in the bathroom, only to be hit with another wave of nausea right afterward. He tried to think back to something that could've given him food poisoning, but he couldn't think of anything. So there were only two possibilities. Either he had a stomach flu, or he was pregnant. 

He hoped it wasn't the second one.

He went out to the store and bought three at home pregnancy tests, and all of them came back positive. 

He was fucking pregnant.

He didn't know what to do, so in his panicked state he called Seokjin. He was already hysterical with the information in the first place, he'd been crying on the floor previously to calling, and he was still crying when he called.