I Hope You Forgot

chapter three

Dear Harry,

I really, really like you. I won't say love yet because I don't know that you love me, that you even like me, and I feel like you don't. I feel like I was just another pretty face to you, and that's all I'll ever be. I don't want to just be something to do when you're bored. I want to be special to you. I want you to miss me when you're on tour, to want to spend every second of every day with me when you're not. I don't want us to be together and for you to say you love me, then just go on tour or go to another city or country, and pretend I don't exist. I don't want you to forget about me. I want to be able to trust you, to be able to fall in love with you, to know that's you'll always think about me.

But I can't have that if you won't talk to me.

I know I'm not going to get everything I want. But I just... want this... so.. so.. bad...

Love,

Kat x

I woke up, got dressed, ate breakfast, everything I normally do before school. The date with Harry was on Saturday, but yesterday I pretty much acted like I had been dumped. That meant stupid movies, stupid ice cream, and watching Niall and Melissa be a stupid happy couple.

I got to school and didn't see Mel, so i walked to my other friend Korie. "Hey." i said as I walked up and she smiled, turning around. She was talking to Liam, and Niall and Melissa were talking nearby.

"Hey, Kat! I was.. talking to Liam." she says happily, she had a crush on him like Mel did with Niall.

"Oh cool. Hey Liam.." i said and waved a little. He answered back with a hi.

"We're going on a double date with Niall and M on Friday. Wanna come?" Korie asked. She knew what happened with Harry, and knew I was still pretty sad. She just doesn't want me to spend the Friday alone.

"I'd kinda be a fifth wheel.... so no. Thanks for the offer though." I said and started walking away, towards Niall and Melissa.

"Hey." I said as I got to them.

"You okay?" Niall asked, and I took a minute to look at them. Niall, leaning on the car with his arm slung lazily over Melissa's shoulder, and Mel, practically sleeping, with her head on his shoulder. They were adorable.

"Yeah, I'm fine." I said and he nodded, obviously not believing me. I walked over and sat under a tree, it's where I go when I'm bored or tired, or just want to think about things on my own. I'm all three right now. I closed my eyes and leaned my head back. It lasted a good five minutes before I was interrupted.

"Hey." i heard a deep male voice. I opened my eyes and saw Harry standing there, looking down at me. He didn't sound angry when he spoke, just normal and calm. It scared me.

"Hi.." i mumbled. I bit my lip and suddenly the grass became interesting. I started pulling out grass, refusing to let myself look at you, refusing to make any sort of eye contact.

I felt him sit down next to me. "So... erm..... basically...." he said, scratching behind his head. I knew he didn't know what to say. I sighed and stood up.

"Harry, don't try to make yourself apologize. I completely understand that I humiliated you. So.. I'm sorry. I'm sorry for yelling, I'm sorry for stealing and looking through your phone, and I'm sorry for dumping my soda all over your head. I'm sorry." I said and walked away from the tree. That... God that was so hard to say. His face the whole time I was saying it just made me want to stop and hug him. I heard him calling my name.

"KAT! WAIT COME BACK!" he yelled, but I kept walking. People were staring and I just kept my head down. The bell rang for school to begin, and the boys had to go.

"I'm sorry." I muttered one last time before slipping into the crowd.