Lillie's POV
"Ok, Kellin, you go sit right there in the corner for me." I said as I pointed to where he needed to be. "Thanks again for helping us." Matty said as sat next to his guitarist. "No problem. Now, I need you two to scoot a little to the left. Sorry, my left your right." I said as they scooted the wrong way. They just laughed and scooted the right way before looking up to me. I looked through the eyepiece of the fancy camera he had gotten for the shoot before looking back at him.
"Ok, we start rolling in 5..4..3..2..1. Go." I said as I stared recording them as they started playing.
I pack my bags and say goodbye to my wife for what seems like the millionth time.
They said it gets easier, but they lied. She looks at me and says, "Really, baby, I will be just fine,"
But then she looks away so I don't have to see her cry. And that is when I ask myself:
How am I supposed to be everything they expect me to be when I feel so alone, 'cause I left my heart at home?
She needs me, but I know they need me too. So, God, give me the strength to do what you created me to do.
Really, I'm so thankful for the people I meet, the places I've been and the things I've seen, but when she's not here it doesn't feel like I'm living my dream. I know they say that no one is perfect, but I swear she's perfect for me and that makes it so much harder to leave.
How am I supposed to be everything they expect me to be when I feel so alone, 'cause I left my heart at home?
She needs me, but I know they need me too. So, God, give me the strength to do what you created me to do.
As Matty finished his first part, I quickly panned over to Kellin as his part started.
If you miss me, I'm just a phone call away. Please be strong, be strong for me. I need you to show me how to change the inside of me. For my heart, for their sake. Be strong, be strong for me!
When he finished, I panned the camera back to Matty as he finished off the song.
How am I supposed to be everything they expect me to be when I feel so alone, so alone?
How am I supposed to be everything they expect me to be when I feel so alone, 'cause I left my heart at home?
She needs me, but I know they need me too. So, God, give me the strength to do what you created me to do.
"Aaaand cut." I smiled as I stopped recording. "Thanks again for your help Lil." Kellin said as he hugged me. "You guys are so welcome. I'm gonna take this back to my bus and edit it a little and I might add some shots of you guys performing to make it look really cool, then when I finish all that stuff, if you have any home videos I could maybe add in that would be cool.." I trailed off hoping that he did. "Yea sure. We had the guys who were supposed to film this in the first place record some for that reason. It should already be stored on there, but if not I have some on my phone we could use." Matty said as I nodded. "Ok, great. I'll just be on my way then." I said as I quickly hugged him then made my way back to the front of the bus.
As I stepped out of the bus, I was immediately grabbed by the rist and pulled off somewhere by someone before I could get a good look at them. The stranger stopped a few seconds later when we rounded the corner of the bus so that we were behind it. A slight gasp escaped my lips as I finally saw who it was.
"Damon, what the fuck is wrong with you?" I asked as I hit him upside the head, causing him to pout and stick his tongue out at me. "Word on the tour is that you and Alex's relationship is on the rocks because of jealousy. Is it true?" he asked, a sad look crossing his face. "No. I mean, yea he gets jealous a lot but it's not making our relationship be put on the rocks. Where exacly did you hear this from?" I said, giving him a suspicious look. "I just heard some people talking at catering about it." he shrugged, making it look like no big deal. I just rolled my eyes before walking out from behind the bus with him following behind me.
