Lion's Heart ~ Jegulus

i hate him

Regulus POV:

Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.
That fucking bastard. This was his fault. Everything was always his fault.

"Regulus! Come here this instant!" Mother screeched. Even from up my room I could hear her.

I walked down the gloomy stairs and past all the portraits of people, that I knew shit about, other than their name. If it wasn't for the fact that mother made or technically forced me to remember their names for whatever fucking reason.

"Yes, mother?" I asked.

"Do you know where Sirius is?" She asked. It was clearly painful for her to talk about Sirius other than yelling or cursing him.

"No mother, I haven't seen him. Why did something happen?" I lied. I had seen him.

"We have no idea where he is or where he's gone! Regulus why were you not watching him!?"
She yelled in my face.

"I was in my room, I didn't suspect he'd do anything." I said slightly scared, since she is a Legilimensi, but in front of a pissed Walburga it's never good to show you're scared or lying.

"You idiotic child! How could you let this happen!?" She screamed once again looking like she was seconds away from ripping my head off.

Shit. Shit. Shit. I fucked up. And now Sirius isn't here to protect me. Fuck! Sirius how could you just leave me!?

"He's gone now and by tomorrow everyone will know because of you useless child!" She screamed as she slapped me. Gods the strength of that women. I'm just lucky it wasn't a curse.

"If tomorrow he is not back you will regret it, Regulus Black, have I made myself clear?" She asked. For the first time since this conversation, she was not yelling this, I was not sure if it was better though.

"Yes mother." I responded the most monotone voice I could after being slapped the fucking life out of me.

"Good you can go upstairs and sleep. Good night Regulus." She said as she kissed my head and left.

I walk upstairs to my room but not before checking Sirius' room. It has stuff missing like clothes, pictures of him and his friends he had hanged in the wall to annoy mother and father. But he left everything else, pictures of him and me when we were little. Important stuff that meant the world to me, but obviously not to him. I knew he was planning on running away, I mean he wasn't very subtle. Besides growing up I learned to read people. But I never expected him to just pack his shit and leave without a second glance not even saying goodbye. I hate him. So fucking much. I hate that he left me, and I don't mean right now. I mean since he started Hogwarts and got those friends. I hate them too. I hate that they make Sirius happy, I hate that they're his brothers. I hate that he took their pictures but not ours. I hate that he hates me.

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Hello! It's the person writing this. This is my first fan fic, and I'm not that good at writing but since there isn't enough Jegulus fanfics I thought I might as well try to write one. Also about the marauders because most fan fics I read don't have them how I visualize them so I thought I might write one since I have a lot of ideas. Feel free to correct me on any misspelling please.
Hope you like it :)