Growing Up

Part 11.

Sirius pointed his wand at the train on the ground as it slowly putted to start and floated about 2 inches above the ground, vapor steaming out of the top of the blue train.

Remus could feel the ringing in his ears. He could feel his bones ache on the hard wood of the chair, the slightest bit of hair rising on the back of his neck, he could feel the irritation rise after every small thing

It was the full moon tonight. And Sirius knew it too.

"Harry, shhh" Sirius put his finger to his lips after Harry had giggled loudly.

Remus took deep breaths after the whistle of the train echoed in the ears.

"Really? On Harry's birthday?" Remus thought to himself. He got even more agitated when he remembered when one night, it was on James' birthday. The guilt of all of them helping Remus i stead of celebrating still haunted him.

Remus quickly pushed that thought aside, as Sirius walked towards him.

"It's tonight." Sirius whispered

"Yeah, i know. I can feel it." Remus whispered back, shooting a glance at Harry over Sirius' shoulder.

Harry sat playing with the train, and the few other toys that they had gotten him earlier that day.

Remus' stomach growled. normally he got sick after the transformation, so he wasn't going to eat.

Sirius put his hands on Remus' knees and leaned over close to his face and kissed him.

Surprisingly, this didn't hurt Remus.

"You still want me out there tonight? You seem agitated. I can stay with Harry, if you'd like?"

"Whatever's fine, i s'pose." Remus muttered hesitantly. He really wanted Sirius out there with him, but that was way too damn selfish to even think about. It was way better with Sirius out there, It made him a little calmer, they've always said, but he had to take care of Harry. That's why the last transformation was so bad.

"I'll check on you when Harry's asleep. I'll stay for as long as i can. I know it helps." Sirius had that stupid grin that Remus loved, which did help the pain.

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Remus walked out to the "shack" holding a book, (the one he read before and after his transformations) while Sirius, in Animagus form, had Harry on his back.

"You be good for padfoot, ok?" Remus smiled at Harry.

Remus could hear Sirius' heart beat faster as they approached the shack.

"Don't be nervous." said Remus, grabbing Harry off his back. He held the baby and smiled, his arms stinging from the weight.

Sirius turned back to himself again.

"I'm not nervous!" he said with a frown.

"Yes you are. i can hear your heartbeat. I'll be fine." Remus smiled at him. He was genuine about tonight. He would be fine in the end.

"Are you sure? Do you still need me to grab anything or-"

"Sirius-"

"Remus just answer me, don't be stubborn."

Remus could feel his blood start to boil, he could feel the hair on the back of his neck start to rise.

"i'm..mmgh-"

It was too late.

"Go!" Remus' strained voice shouted.

Remus, unknowingly started to walk towards Harry, mid-transformation.