Once In a Lifetime

Chapter 21

The song at the top helps with the mood, so you can listen to it. or not

also i think this chapter is a little longer than normal, butt who cares right?

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// 6 years ago //

"they left us with her..." I heard Monique say. She was on the phone with someone. Someone I didn't know.

"no, we did not ask for this." Pause. "I have to teach her manners, I have to teach her not to only think about herself, but to put others first, because that is what they would have done." Pause. "why? Because like I said, I did not ask for this. What if she misbehaves? What do I do then? I don't know how to raise a child!" pause. "no, I cannot do that! I have a responsibility."

Let's play a game. What are the changes she was talking about me?

It was quiet for a while, until Monique spoke up again. "ok. I will figure it out. Yes. Goodbye"

//

Julia's Pov, August 8

"can I have a bite?" Niall asked

"mm no." I jokingly answered.

"c'mon Blondie. Don't be selfish." Niall said with a chuckle, looking hopeful.

My smile quickly faded, and my stomach dropped. I felt like I wanted to throw up. I immediately stopped chewing and looked up at him. I swallowed my food with a lifeless expression.

"like you would share your food." Harry chuckled, looking at Niall.

I put on a fake smile and said, "ha, of course you can have a bite. I was just joking. You can have all of it if you want." I shoved my plate to his side, and he looked at me.

"you sure?" he checked

"mhm. I'm full anyways." I quietly said. That there, the selfish part. That really fucking hurt.

I hate hearing that I'm selfish, even though it's the truth sometimes. I should've just given him everything in the first place.

I didn't want to eat anymore. I just couldn't. There was a lump in my throat that wouldn't go away, and I still felt like I wanted to throw up. Or cry. Maybe both. My organs felt like bricks, trying to take me down with them.

They were talking and laughing, and I just kept quiet. Putting a smile on at the appropriate times. I was picking at my nails and they finally finished eating. I didn't want to be here anymore.

"you okay?" Louis asked quietly as he nudged my side.

I looked up at him, "yeah, just... tired"

"you want to go to your room? Have some quiet? I'll bring you a cup of tea later?" he asked with a smile

I took a deep breath and nodded with a small mile.

"can I uhm. Can I maybe go?" I said to the other boys, who stopped talking and looked at me.

"yeah course, I'll bring you some tea later?" Louis asked. God bless him.

"mhm." I smiled while taking a deep breath.

Don't cry. Don't cry.

I smiled as I stood up with my plate. I brought it to the counter in their cabin and walked to my own. I didn't want to speak anymore. I didn't want to eat anymore. The only thing I could think about was what he had said.

I was lying in bed, watching Gilmore Girls when I heard my phone buzz. I was still hurt about what happened, but I calmed down.