His broken smile (KiriBakuDeku)

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Again thanks Baddy2021

TW: Not eating, H@rmful thoughts, may mention an e@ting d!sorder

Don't worry the playdate still happens except it's moved to around 2 pm not 12

Also let's explain my day at school, I literally just came out to some of my friends as Nonbinary, and that my name is changed... but the thing is.. It was my alter, Flower. They tend to say stuff that shouldn't be said to others unless I trust them a whole lot. I was super frustrated, and then earlier today I disassociated with two of my other alters, and I had some pretty bad thoughts, so I guess you can say I've had one hell of a day..

Kirishima's POV

I awoke to the smell of pancakes and bacon, I rub the sleep out of my eyes before finally sitting up. "What time is it?" I yawned to no one in particular, "9:43!" Baku yelled from the kitchen. When he did that I could here Izu's giggles carry from the island chair, I walked over to the little emerald and shower him with kisses. "St-stop Kiri!" He giggled more, tears streaming down his face from all the laughter. "Fine!" I fake pouted before walking over to the ticking time bomb, "And good morning to you too." He grumbles, guess he's a bit salty that he didn't get good morning kisses too. "Good morning my wonderful little chef!" I pipe up before giving him a fat kiss on the lips, he turned into a strawberry. Izu fell into a laughing fit, "Anyways, after breakfast get ready cause ya'll are having a playdate with Kami.~" I say nonchalantly, I could here a small giggle come from Baku's lips, and Izu squealed. "Denki-denks!" Izu basically just said his fist name and a nickname as one full nickname, I laughed. "Yup, Denki-Denks!" I chirp while helping Explosion finish making breakfast.

I set 3 pancakes on all of our plates, while Baku put like 5 pieces of bacon on my plate ,and 3 for him and Izu. I slid the plate in front of Izu, "Eat up sweets!" I say while setting Baku's plate in front of him. Izu stared at it, a scared look on his face, and then he looks up at me while a nervous smile. "What's the matter sweetie?" I say, concern lacing my voice. Baku looks over at us, his face stuffed with bacon. "N-not hungry...?" Izu responds with more of a question than a statement. "Just eat one pancake then I'll let you go." I try to reason with him and luckily, it works! I watched as Izu strained to finish his pancake, "Baby... It shouldn't be that hard to eat a pancake.." Baku sets a gentle hand on Izu's back, emerald flinched. Now we both looked concerned. "P-please excuse me! I have t-to pee!" Izu quickly shot up and walked to the restroom, "He's lying." Bakugou deadpanned, "Do you think he's regressing back to his other mindset...?" I ask, my voice trembling. The uselessness tormenting me once more, just like the first time we were at the hospital. "Kiri, I need you to stay with me okay.. It's okay, just breathe..." I could feel the anxiety bubbling up in my chest, my breathing started to become quicker and unstable. I clawed at my throat, trying to get some sort of air flowing through my lungs. "Useless! You saw your friends needed help and you just stood there! Ejirou fucking Kirishima, you are useless!"  I could hear my mom's shrill voice screeching at me like a bald eagle on a summer morning. It was loud.. Then my vision started to get blotchy.

Bakugou's POV

Kiri started to have a panic attack and then I hear retching come from the restroom. This is no time to get overwhelmed! I got this! I quickly pick up Kirishima and rock him back and forth, trying to help him ride out the panic attack. I whisper sweet nonsense into his ears, his tears and breathing slowing down. "There you go.." I whisper while setting him on the counter, "Th-thank you..." He mumbled, clearly ashamed of his actions. "Babes, it's fine.. I know you're getting overwhelmed but we needa help Izu now, you think you can do that?" I ask cautiously while helping him down, "What happened?!" He panics. "No no no, calm down, but I think I head him throwing up in the restroom..." I mumble the last part, knowing a pretty good reason why he was throwing up. He never let's us see him without a shirt except for that one day we saved him, or a couple weeks ago, nor does he change in front of us, and he's becoming thinner by the week.. "We need to help him. Call Hito and say we're moving the playdate to 2 o'clock." Kiri manages to keep calm and give me directions, I quickly take out my phone and dial Shin's number, while Kiri runs over to the restroom. I could feel myself disassociating every passing ring but I wouldn't let myself. "Yes ruby?" Shin finally picks up the phone, "Izuku threw up, Kiri just had a panic attack, and I'm half disassociating, so please move the play-.. playdate to 2!" My alter came out mid sentence, which pissed me off, but nothing I can do about it. "I'll come over, just sit tight, and calm down." Shin makes his voice even more gentle than before, I could feel myself calming down a bit before he hung up.

"If you don't calm the fuck down, I don't need your help!" I whisper-yell at the person in my head! They seemed to chill out for a little bit, good fucking thing! I quickly ran over to the restroom where I saw Kiri cuddling the hell out of Zuzu. I sat down next to both of them, rubbing Zuzu's back. "He said solid food just won't stay down, since he never ate correctly back then, and then... he uhm.. hasn't eaten in over 2 weeks... well other than milk and he's been throwing it up." Kiri explained to me, his voice breaking every so often. Izuku broke out into a fit of tears, "Love.. we should see a doctor tomorrow.. for now, let's go see Denki-Denks!" I tried to sound as happy as I could, pushing back my alters at the same time. Kiri gave me a thankful smile, I swiftly swopped Zuzu from his arms then helped him stand up.