Here In My Heart (a true to life story) BOOK 1 - Destined (COMPLETE)

CHAPTER 46 (updated)

**CHAPTER 46**

**NORMAL POV**

I ran fast and tried to chase after the bus for no particular reason. I don't know, it just came into my senses that I have to chase after the person I love inside that bus no matter what.

I'm aware that I'm crying already, but these tears were no ordinary tears, it is a product of my mixed emotions.

I feel happy for having Andrew, knowing that he really loves me. I really am living my teenage dream – to be with the person I love and loves me back.

I feel regretful for my late appreciation of his existence. It feels like I'm running out of time.

But still, I feel lucky and blessed for winning a heart of a man who's ideal as Andrew.

And lastly, I'm terrified. I never been involved in a relationship like this before, I mean in order to win someone's heart, I need to work for it as hard as I could. It took patience, guts and above all, lowering of my ego. But look at the bright side, I appreciate him more.

"I love you.."

"I love you.."

"I love you.."

The last words Drew uttered kept echoing inside my head. Still, I can't believe that he is going to say such thing to me.

My system didn't stopped from running, as if I was also made up of engines like vehicles but I failed in chasing after him. I got exhausted; I landed my hands on my knees and trying to gasp for air while I was looking on every tear dropping on the floor.

Now I know why I still feel incomplete although I already have him. I wasn't able to say to him personally what I feel inside. No text messages, emails or bunch of love letters will replace the appreciation you'll deliver in letting your heart speak for itself.

"I love you more.. " I said while trying to reach out to him though it's impossible to make the bus stop.

I stood up and wept my tears.

"Magiging malakas ako para sa'yo Babe, I do trust you."

I guess I'll go home. Knowing Andrew, he's matured enough to handle things on his own.

Besides, masyado nanaman akong nagdra-drama. Bakit ba kasi inarte ako? Love ka na nga Khian diba? Masyado ka din kasing concious eh.

Nababaliw na talaga ako. Sinesermunan ko nanaman sarili ko. Ewan ko ba bakit may anxiety nanaman ako. Siguro ayaw ko lang mawala siya sa akin, dahil alam ko, I'm one of the lucky ones who already found someone.

I should be greatful that I'm experiencing true love.

Sumakay na ako ng jeepney pauwi ng pamamahay namin. Siguro I'm only over thinking of it too much, kaya ako nag-aalala. When I got home, umakyat agad ako ng kwarto, sinabit ko muna ang signboard na ginawa ko ilang araw na ang nakakalipas, so no one would even think about destroying my moment of being alone. Gusto ko munang mapag-isa.

"BAWAL PUMASOK. MAY NAMATAY NA DITO." Yan ang nakasulat sa signboard na ginawa ko gawa sa karton ng sapatos, effective naman, walang nagtatangkang pumasok ng kwarto ko. Kaya naman I have the chance to be alone and think about things.

Nagpunta ako sa bintana para magpahangin. I can't stop thinking about Andrew, I guess I miss him already.

Minutes have passed yet it feels like I've been waiting for him for years already.

Kinuha ko ang bag ko and searched for my phone, itetext ko si Babe to check if nakarating na siya ng Laguna, apparently, naunahan na niya ako itext.