Optimism?

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by sagestilinski06

by sagestilinski06

What's this?

I don't know how to describe it,

This feeling,

For the first time I don't feel scared,

I don't feel sad,

He distracts me and I don't know how,

But I feel okay,

I feel weirdly happy,

I know he is the cause of this I've only spoken to him for 3 days and I feel like everything is changing,

Is it for the better?

I really hope so

It feels odd, it's like a long lasting infatuation with someone,

I cannot be sure the feelings are irretrievable or or irrevocable,

He is motivational, and smart and kind,

Try to be optimistic my Doctor said,

I am trying and I am more optimistic,

But what if he leaves,

What if I say the wrong thing and he hates me,

What if I make a fool out of myself?

I will be optimistic,

It will be okay,

I will get better,

I will help others the way he helps me.

A/N: So the guy I like and write about texted me and we've had very deep conversations about anxiety and motivations and stuff and oh my lord he so sweet and amazing with words. He's so understanding as well.