The Wrong Party

Changes

We sat in the waiting room, clearly uncomfortable as we watched kids, babies, and mom's, talking or playing. I could tell she was trying not to look grossed out as a kid came over and patted her thigh with a soggy cookie on his hands. She smiled and looked away, as I intertwined her fingers with mine. 

We were finally called back and followed a nurse to one of the rooms, as soon as the nurse left the room after asking her questions Reina let out a groan and laid back on the table "what the fucking fuck" 

"I know" I nodded as I sat in the chair 

"How the hell am I supposed to just, like children?"

"I think it'll be different because it's ours. It's not just some random kid" 

"I hope so" she sighed 

When it finally came time for the ultrasound we both held our breath as I held her hand

She propped herself up on her elbows and stared wide eyed at the screen, my jaw dropped and I let go of her hand as the nurse took pictures and talked to us. I don't think either one of us really paid attention to her as we were too focused on the screen. 

The drive home was silent. 

We got to her apartment and continued in silence as I got myself a glass of coke and she got herself a glass of apple juice. We sat at the kitchen table together just staring at the pictures in front of us. 

It took a solid twenty minutes for one of us to finally speak

"What do we do now?" She sighed 

"I'm going to have to work in the actual office"

She looked up at me confused 

"I get ten dollars more per hour if I work in office and do the field team"

She nodded in understanding "I would look for a better job, but honestly I'm going to have to go on maternity leave before they get here" she sighed "I can't even afford to rent a new place right now with more room" she shook her head 

"You pay twelve hundred a month for this place. My mortgage is only nine eighty, why don't you get a house?"

"And how much did you take out from the bank? How much did you need to put down? Yoongs, I have shit fucking credit and no real savings" she shook her head "I basically work for tips" she shrugged 

"Well. In a few months, or even now, you can move in with me? Jin found a place, he'll be moving in a few days, I have two spare rooms. You can take one and the other can be the nursery, or you can share my room with me, and we'll have a nursery. Once they get older, they'll each have their own room at my house" I shrugged 

"That could work" she nodded slowly as she was deep in thought "what if we fight? Or we can't live together?"

"Reina, you're my best friend and the mother of my children. Even if we fought, you have to know I'd never kick you out" 

"Okay" she sighed and put her hands over her face "okay" 

"We'll be okay" I mumbled, trying to reassure not only her, but myself. I felt like someone hit me in my chest with a baseball bat. Not only did I get her knocked up, but go fucking figure it's twins. I must have done some heinous things in my past life to deserve this. 

It took almost a month for us to get everything situated. To break her lease, move her in, for me to start working in the office, and even though we were so close, there was an awkwardness between us living together. It took almost two months for that awkwardness to disappear, and we found a routine that worked for us. My bed, was our bed, my room, was our room, my house, was our house. It worked. 

We finally had another ultrasound appointment, neither one of us was really looking forward to going. 

But that was the day everything changed. 

Yeah, in the three months since we found out, we had both gotten used to the idea of having babies. We started stocking up on diapers, clothes, bottles, all of the necessities. We went out and got two cribs, two swings, we made sure we had what we would need as soon as they were here and figured we'd get everything else as we needed it. 

But neither one of us was actually looking forward to it, until that particular appointment. 

She was four months pregnant and the babies finally looked more like babies and less like sea monkeys, or unidentified floating objects. 

They were babies. 

My babies.

Our babies. 

They had heads, limbs, hearts, brains, they were real. That was the moment we both realized, we both wanted them. We loved them. We watched them move, and we both teared up. We listened to their heartbeats and cried a little harder as we held hands and watched the screen. 

When we got into my car we both let out a sigh and looked down at the photos 

"Yoongs"

"Hmm?"

"I'm..happy. I'm actually, really happy. And really excited" she smiled as she looked up at me

"I am too" I rested my hand on her thigh "I can't wait for them to get here, honestly" I smiled as she leaned in and kissed my lips 

Our night time conversations as we laid in bed together changed from all of the changes and negative impacts, to all of the happy and hopeful ideas and visions we had for our babies. We went from never talking about names, to genuinely trying to find boy and girl names we both liked. 

It was a complete one eighty. 

I looked forward to going home to her and feeling the babies move around in her stomach. I would blow raspberries on her skin making us laugh as the babies shifted around. She was working but she was also cleaning the house, making dinner every night, and taking care of everything. My house felt like a warm cozy home that would feel complete once we had our babies in our arms. 

My friends were in and out of our house frequently, eating Reina's home-cooked meals, feeling the babies, bringing over presents for them, anything they thought we'd need or like. Everything felt perfect. I felt at ease. And I knew she felt the same. 

When we found out the genders, we cheered and celebrated by having all of the guys over for dinner. We were having a boy and a girl. 

Jay and Mae 

I cried. 

"I hope they look like you" she mumbled as she laid her head on my chest, I chuckled as I traced my fingers up and down her spine 

"I want them to look like you"

"Me too, I was just trying to be sweet" she laughed as I playfully scoffed and jabbed her side with my finger 

"Rude"

"Duh" she giggled as she kissed my lips "I love you Yoongs"

"I love you too gorgeous" I smiled as I kissed her again. I sighed as we drifted off to sleep. 

Everything is going to be okay.