Loving you

CHAPTER 13

Ok so this is a long chapter, I try to make it shorter than possible but it's still a long chapter.

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1 week and 5 days past and sometimes I see Natasha's on her phone smiling and laughing like a crazy woman and heard her talking to someone sometime she tells to the caller a sweet things but I just shrug it off and do my daily routine which is relax, help Tony and Bruce in the lab sometimes, cook, and more. My wounds are now fully heal so I can do more training now so I head to the gym and thank god it's empty, the team decided to chill and relax today so it's good to train right now

I just wear a gym shorts and sports bra then I go to the treadmill and began running. I run for over 1 and half hour no break and voices keeps echoing in my head

'I love you too'
'Take care of yourself'
'Come home safely without scratch'
'I miss you'
'Hope you're here'
'Take care there, be safe love you too!'
'Don't do stupid things!'
'Just come home!'

That words echoing in my head for over this past few days and it's driving me crazy, I don't want to accuse Natasha that she's cheating but those words keep ripping my mind and I think a dirty possibilities might going on

I stop running and sigh a deep breath, looking at the ground clearing my mind but it's no use. I go in punching bag and punch it with all force, the anger to myself, the dirty things I think to her, to think she's cheating, to doubt to her I keep punching it until it break

I sigh and look at the punching bag that's laying on the floor sands is everwhere, I took it and throw it at the big bin and clean the mess after that I do it again and clean again. I use 7 punching bag non stop and my arms are shaking, my hands are now cover in blood and there's a blood in the floor too and 6 punching bag, when the last punching bag break I stop and clean it I've spend 6 hours here so I made my way upstairs and go to our room

I go to the bathroom and wash my hand and got shower, thankfully Talia was not here, she's in the store with Steve buying snacks for movie night later. I change to black tank top and grey joggers, put my hair in a ponytail and head to the kitchen, it's 1 pm so everyone is done eating lunch

"Hi Y/N, where were you?" Sam ask when I cross the living room

"Gym I just missed to be in there so I train!" I go to kitchen and put some food in my plate

"What happened to your hands?" Clint ask when he enter the kitchen. I look at my hands that covered in bandage

"Ohh I just punch the punching bag pretty hard like few hours but I'm fine!" I sit in the Island and start eating, he grab a water bottle and look at me

"What's in your mind?" He sit besides me, he's like a brother to me but I never open up to him

"Nothing I just need some distraction!" He pat my back and smile to me

"You know, you can talk to me right?!" I nod to him and he leave and I finish my food and clean it and go sit with Thor and cuddle to him

"M'lady what's the matter?" He became my brother to me and his my best friend, sometimes I told him my problems

"Nothing I just want cuddles!" I snuggle to his lap hug his mid section and buried my face in his neck, he just put his hand in my back and rub it and hug me. They didn't mind if they see us like this specially Natasha since they all know that his my best friend/brother but at first Natasha got jealous so for the first months she always punish me, but I assure her that it's nothing

"Are you sure? I think something's bothering you!" I shake my head no so he just let it go

He trace some small circle in my back and I feel my self slowly drifting off to sleep but before I sleep the door open and I heard some footsteps after a minute someone tap my shoulder so I look at the person it was Natasha