Hell is better

Chapter 8

Sorry that I took so long to update. I'm busy with my exams.
But here it is

Newts Pov:

I was kind of nervous, no idea why. I clung desperately to the desk in front of me.
I didn't want to look down, but I had no choice.
Teresa next to me just giggled, I ignored it. Was I afraid of heights or was it just because Teresa just couldn't fly this Berk?
My pulse was really racing and I was breathing quickly.
Even if I wanted to, I just couldn't tear my gaze away from the view. It was almost terrifying.
For a brief moment I forgot that I really couldn't stand altitude. The landscape here was totally destroyed, but there was something beautiful about it.
The broken buildings, this silence ... it looked kind of nice. It fit into the landscape. Maybe only because I didn't know any other way ......
Somehow I managed to avert my gaze.
I looked around the Berk, it was really terrifyingly empty in here. Except for the few boxes we had filled with supplies and clothes, there was nothing but pure gray.
Teresa, next to me, had now fully concentrated on flying.
Her eyes were fixed forward and her shoulder-length hair was tied in a ponytail.
"Don't you have any problems with the altitude?" I finally asked her. "Nope, why should I ... I've flown with Berks a number of times and also fell from a 50-story skyscraper, so that's where it came from." she replied without looking at me.
She laughed, but I could hear the pain in her voice.
Was she still hurt? Or were their wounds already healed?
One thing was certain: scars would definitely remain. She was hurt worse than me.
But you couldn't really compare it, I had the flare. In any case, I had never asked about it again, and we had never come up with the subject again. Which I was also grateful for.
I dropped back in my seat as the brunette slowed down a bit and I was able to relax a bit.
"How did you actually fix that thing?" came out of my mouth.
Now she turned to me.
"The cables were just twisted and not the right way round."
I turned back to the front.
"I could actually have figured it out earlier."
"Attention!" I called to her and she reacted with lightning speed.
The fear in her eyes flickered as we got closer and closer to the building. "Fuck ....!" she mumbled.
Before I could say anything, she flew up at a 90 degree angle with all her might. I was thrown backwards and clawed into the seat.
Then everything went very quickly: The speed increased and after a while it was flying straight again, but I hit one of the buttons with my head straight away.
At first we didn't notice anything and flew on, but suddenly the flap opened and everything in front of it flew out. "No! No! No!" she yelled and turned backwards.
I just sat there speechless and watched our supplies slowly disappear.
"Shit, sorry ... I didn't mean to ..." I felt guilty.
"It's okay, it was kind of my fault." Then she pressed a few buttons and flew down.
"What do you do?"
"We have to see if we can still use any of it."

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I crawled around on the floor looking for things that hadn't been destroyed. Teresa did the same a few meters away.
Everything was spread out over 200 meters and we had already made some headway.
The parked Berk was about 100 meters away from us. So far we had only found a few edible things.
The clothes weren't broken, but almost everything else. I had just found an intact can and threw it into the box.
I turned to Teresa just as she freaked out and kicked a stone. Her face was red with anger and she started screaming.
I startled at the loud sound. When she realized I was looking at her, she came my way.
"All the water .... gone, broken ....!" Shit ... that was especially important. "At least we still have something to eat ..."
I tried to comfort her somehow. "Great, it brings us so much. That means that we have to go to a city to fetch water ... it won't be pleasant." She was right, the Munies were hated everywhere. I was one of them now.
I sat down on the big stone next to us. "Let's take a break first."

~

We sat together for a while and looked into the distance together.
We were now further north. There was grass and trees here, not just desert.
The sun, which was slowly setting, beamed at us and for a moment it seemed to me that everything was normal.
I mean, the sun was the mother of life ..... as long as it was still there, there was life. On the other hand, she could erase it entirely.
"You can have him by the way ..." she started suddenly and I didn't understand what she meant.
"Who?"
"Tom"
It suddenly occurred to me that I hadn't thought about him lately. And why could I have him ... she loved him after all, they had kissed ... they were ...
"But why. I mean you kissed ..... you ..." my words didn't make sense. "I don't love him. Well, yes ... but not like that. I'm pretty stupid that I didn't notice that before.
There was always only Tom and me, there was nothing else for me. He was always there for me, he always understood me.
And don't get me wrong .... I've always loved him and I always will. But not as a lover.
I love him like a brother, like a best friend. I need him, but I don't have to love him.
Not that way.
I realized that ... when I kissed him, when my whole life passed me by. "
I didn't even know what to say, it came so suddenly. I had always believed ..... why had I actually always believed that she could not love in spite of everything?
But now I didn't even know why. "Why are you telling me that?" "Because I know how you look at him, because I know how much you like him.
And I'm sure that he loves you. He just doesn't know ... although, maybe he does.
It doesn't matter I just wanted to tell you that.
I'm not as heartless as you think, and I'm not blind either. "
Normally I should have been thinking about Tommy now, shouldn't I? But only two things came to mind.
1. I had never believed her, but she was telling the truth.
For the first time since I had known her, she was really honest.
And 2. I didn't hate her ... I kind of wanted to, after all ..... but I didn't hate her.
And I realised that I never did.

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