Hell is better

Chapter 6

Before I start the chapter I want to address one more thing.
And indeed Newt and his sexuality: yes, I know that James Dashner said Newt was gay and I respect that too! I am not homophobic!
Everyone should be allowed to love whoever they want, I'm bisexual (and no, not just because of the trend, I'm 17, I can decide for myself).
Newt is still a character, he's not real, so you can change him a bit. I'm not saying that Newt isn't gay in the books / movies, I'm just saying that I've changed his character a bit.
He's bisexual in this story.
This story is for entertainment only and is not intended to attack anyone!

Newts Point of view:

I blinked to fill my eyes with fluid. Everything around me was already dark, only the bright blue computer light shone directly in your eyes.
It was weird. I was tired, very tired, but the adrenaline and my curiosity kept me awake.
My eyes almost closed and I was sure I was at the end of my tether, but something in me was not calming down.
I was looking for something if I only knew what it was.
Teresa had gone to bed a few hours ago. She tried to talk to me and said I should continue tomorrow, but I just ignored her. As if I let her tell me what to do. I couldn't be told that she was concerned about it. It was a little too late for that, she should have taken care of that sooner. When overhauled. She couldn't care less, it didn't matter, and her mock sympathy made me sick.
Although she looked more like she was going to fall over.
I was torn at times, but then still persisted in not feeling sorry for her.
I opened the next page on the device. Once again, thousands of texts emerged, all of which were dated. Sometimes there were video recordings or emails, but so far nothing usable.
I had made up my mind to start over, so I went through everything about WCKD, really everything. The downside, however, was that there was a lot and I was still a long way from getting to the records of my friends or myself.
Maybe it was stupid and hopeless, but I couldn't do anything better. It was my chance to learn everything about the organization, its methods, its goals ...... maybe also a chance to understand all of this better.
But of course it wouldn't change my opinion about Wckd.
I had lost way too much, been through way too much to just give up somewhere.
Teresa could never understand that ..... she was never lacking anything.
She always had a home.

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Of course I remembered. The flare had brought it all back.
At first I thought it was just dreams, but at some point it felt real. At some point I no longer knew what was just imagination and what wasn't.
And then, when I was in the last stadium and when Tommy almost killed me, my whole life passed me by.
Everything that was before the maze, my family, my friends, Wckd.
I remembered Sonya, her real name, and that she was my sister. I remembered that men in uniform had shot our parents. And I remembered what it was like to live with Wckd. Everything they had done, what I had experienced ...... I could stick to it.
But there was so much more! So much we didn't know about Wckd, so much what happened behind the scenes.
If Wckd was a person I could ask her, but it wasn't. So I had to stick to these notes and try to put the individual pieces of the puzzle together to form a picture.

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And I despaired of it, of everything. And the more I let it, the more angry or shocked I got.
Wckd had once had good goals, but it had grown into a monster. We had been exposed to that.
My heart got heavier and heavier as I saw the background to my friends.

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<NEWT, Subject A5, the glue>

I found lots of such little notes in our files. Most of the time there was something listed about our brains, our past and our character, but these little pieces of information confused me the most.
"What the hell is the glue supposed to mean?" I muttered to myself.
"That you are the reason why they all forgive each other again and again, you held them together like a glue."
I turned when I heard Teresa.
My eyes followed her every step just to make sure she was up to nothing. You never knew with her, especially not at 3 a.m. But she just went to the kitchen and got some water.
She drank like she hadn't seen one in months. Her shirt slipped up a bit and I caught a glimpse of her sinewy back and stomach.
Only now I wonder how thin she actually was. You could see all of her ribs and every muscle stood out. When I looked at it that way, it looked like she hadn't eaten for months.
I would probably never have noticed. She didn't look different, I just had never looked at her like that.
A cold shiver ran down my spine when I saw her like this, she looked terrifyingly weak, although her facial expression radiated stronger. Nevertheless she looked tired and suddenly I felt very tired. I yawned. The little noise made her flinch. "Maybe you should go to sleep slowly." she said then.
This time I didn't argue.

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Dream:

I was sitting in a big room with a lot of other children.
Beside me I could see Minho and Alby talking. Suddenly Minho laughed out loud and one of the doctors who had just brought little Chuck back gave him an angry look. But Minho's lips only twisted into a grin.
I was just about to eat my food again when the door opened.
Tommy walked in cautiously, gazing across the room before landing on us. He waved to us and we back. He went a few steps forward and behind him came a girl!
How long was it since I hadn't seen any more ?! The others were just as surprised.
She approached us shyly, half hiding behind Thomas. She had long black hair, her skin was rosy and her blue eyes sparkled. She was really pretty. "Guys ... this is Teresa." they sat down next to us and we all introduced ourselves.
"You can call me Tess if you want." suddenly her shyness was gone and replaced by a big smile.
I already knew I liked her.

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Isn't it interesting that Newt things Teresa had a better life then he had? And that she did not lose anything?
I think he don't know whats really going on......It could be really exciting

Please give me some feedback, this takes so long and I just want to entertain you!!
And I really hope you like it.

Your Arya