Tears of Rose: A Poetry Collection

Goddess of honesty

I am going down wrong drain
I know what would expect you from me

I am product of darkness
Daughter of serial narcissists

What more you expect
What more you expect

But dear goddess of honesty
You arent doing good in pushing me

Dont set me up please dont
I am aware this type gonna break me

I am afraid of getting manipulated
Didnt you saw me suffering

Why are you doing that
I am not being judgy judgy

I am really afraid from inside
Dont break me; dont feed me to hell hounds

I lack brain cells
I don't have it in me to go through same pain

I am a child who knows to mind my own business
I dont wanna start a fire

I lack brain cells; I lack tolerance
I dont have it in me dont push me up for this

You want accountability
I can apologise to her

But i hope you listen to my silent screams
And dont set me up for this no going back

Her pricking comments suffocate me
Her judgy aura leave me sick and twisted

Dont set me up for this
I am not capable of this handling this violence

Just let me breath and keep myself
At least in one corner where I dont have to hide

I am tired of being a fixer
I cant do this anymore

Please let me have my left over sanity
Please dont push me anymore

I am not up for this
Its not ego I promise

It's those memories
I wanna live and love

I wanna trust freely
Please let me be

I dont wanna go back
I dont wanna go back