«𝑺𝒂𝒅 𝒃𝒖𝒕 𝒕𝒓𝒖𝒆»

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You're leaving me
I'm slowly loosing you
I'm happy for you
But you aren't quit happy yet
We came so far
But you're not there yet
I told you I would walk you to the end
Hold your hand and never let go
You told me to
And I promised you
You said it yourself
"Thank you"
So why is it that you're letting go?
Why are you slowly releasing your hand from mine?
Yet not fully leaving me
Don't get this wrong
I'm not blaming you
But wondering

"Did I loose worth again?"

It seems like I did
You still talk to me
But why is it you only do when there is no one else?
I'm always the second choice
And I always have been
So here is my sincere apology
I'm sorry for thinking I am worthy to be your number one just because you are mine
I realised it's selfish
I don't expect anything
You know that, so I'm glad
Am I still allowed to cry for a bit?
Can I cry for you?
Is it wrong to say:"I miss you"
Because
I miss you
You said I was the only one who stayed like they promised
Why does it seem like I'm the one by your side but you aren't?
Now I know that just because you're running next to someone it doesn't mean you are running together
But it hurts
I don't need to vent
I won't
I stopped for a long time
I will just listen
Like I always do
Make you smile
Let you forget
Take care of you
You don't even realise it
Does that mean you mean much more to me than I do to you?
I always knew that...
But seeing the gap it's actually pretty big
And it hurts
Deep

Now that you found you're number one am I not needed anymore?