Reverse Dream; Entangled Reality || SunSun FF

하나

하나: Remember

Life is always unfair, getting more cruel as it turn around. There's many things we can enjoy and create, but I wanted to create every single memories with him.

“Good morning!” I greeted, before planting a kiss on his forehead. He smiled warmly while admiring the view before us. Watching the sun rise whilst standing in the veranda. The view did capture my eyes, but his smile melted my heart more.

“Do you remember my name?” I asked, hopefully. He glance at me before leaning his head on my shoulder.

“You're Steven, silly."

How badly I wanted to say I'm not. I badly wanted to say that I am Stan, the one with him through ups and down. The one he loves for almost four years.

A painful smile escaped my lips. The corner of my eyes started forming hot liquids, but I stopped them before streaming down. I can't cry right now, I should just get use to this.

Sean is schizophrenic, he can't identify the difference between imaginary and reality. He can't identify who's who, he's suffering from hallucinations and illusions. And I'm afraid it's getting worse each day. Taking medication didn't have an effect, and I'm afraid that I'll lose him.

I shouldn't think negatively, I shouldn't.

And about Steven, he's the one with him through his imaginations. I knew it was overwhelming for him, and as a result, everything started mixing up inside his mind.

Imagination and hallucinations towered over him, and it's painful to face, how a joyful dream turns into a dreadful nightmare.

“Is that my mom?” He asked while pointing the neighbor's window, the vacant house across our house. I was caught off guard, realizing no one was there but empty space.

I held his hand, before hiding his face on my chest. He's hallucinating again. Damn it!

“Hey, don't you want me to say hi to her. She's waving at us, you know.” I felt so weak when he said that. I felt like I would lose everything in that very moment.

The pain was attacking me. But I'll endure it just so I could be here for him. He needs me.

“She's already gone.”

“What do you mean? She's right there, arasseo?" He tried escaping from me, but I never let him take another glance. He can't, I won't let him.

His mother died two years ago, he has no one aside from me. Now, why would I leave if the person I love need me the most. When his mother died, everything went blurry for him. That exact event happened to affect his mentality. Apparently, his mother also died from this disease that's why I fear that it also could happen to him.

“Can't you see the butterflies around us?”

He asked again. I looked around, seeing nothing. I weakly smile before cupping his face.

“There's no butterfly in here.” I simply said, pursuing him the reality towered by his hallucinations.

He chuckled before hugging me tight. I hope he can remember my name.

The fact that I'm fighting yet I don't know my own opponent.

Every wound and pain that I have yet nothing and no one sliced my skin. It's more painful knowing that there's nothing there, but events that are created by his mind.

“You'll be with me forever, right? Together?"

“Together...”