Reverse Dream; Entangled Reality || SunSun FF

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들: Pain and Fear

“Stan!” I shifted my gazes at Ethan. He was waving his hand at me while I was heading my way to the parking lot.

“Need something?” I casually asked while playing with my car keys. He sighed before tapping my shoulder. I already knew what he is up to.

“Aren't you tired, Stan? I've been saying this before, but as your friend, I'm also concerned. Almost everyone was gossiping about you staying with Sean.” He stated, full with sincerity. I flash a smile before looking down.

Yes, everything is painful. Everything is too much for me to handle, but as long as I could fight, I won't give up. Just because he's suffering, I'll let him deal with it? Just why the hell would I do such things?

He was there for me.

And though everything became different, I'll always stay with him no matter what.

“I am tired, but I won't give up. I don't care what people say, they don't have the rights to meddle with our life. I am tired, but this is all part of living.” I smiled before tapping his back, he just nodded then walk away.

It's already 6:12 PM, I bet he's already bored in there. We live in the same apartment, cozy just for the two of us.

I kept reminiscing everything from the start, from the day I met him.

Every time he smiles, I hope he could say those three words with my name.

Hoping someday that he could remember everything, the events that existed...

“I'm home,” I muttered expecting to see him at the living room. Half of me was confused when I saw no one was there. I checked every room but he wasn't there.

I messed up with my hair in frustration. I went out, looking through the road, finding any tracks of him. My knees started shaking, I wanted to scream but I need to find him first.

The pain started tingling my system. Worried was an understatement. And I could feel the fear inside me. I can't close my eyes while running around the village.

I don't know any place he would want to— Damn it, now I know where is he.

Do you know the feeling of fear and pain? The pain was stabbed onto my heart, fearing that he will go away in just a single blast. I'm afraid everything would shatter into pieces.

I face the neighboring house right in front of me. It was abandoned and vacant but it was still clean rather than haunted.

This is the place where he pointed, where he said his mother was waving.  I'm afraid he's attacked by hallucinations again.

I run inside the house, the lights were off, but the light coming from the window lessen the dim of the place. And I was right, I saw him standing there, talking to someone else.

He's talking to an empty space. Damn it!

“Mom, Steven is a good guy. He's so kind to me, also.”

If this is a normal event, I would jump in fear, thinking this is a ghost encounter. But no, it's not. Definitely not.

I guess he's convincing his mother to believe that 'Steven' is a nice guy. Is Steven better than I am in that world? Is he much better than I am?

I leaned against the wall, standing a meter away from him. I pushed back my hair, looking down. Fuck, why does it hurt when he's saying that guy's name rather than mine?

“Steven, there you are.” I gave off a faint smile before running to hug him. I rested my head on his shoulder, feeling so weak. “What happened to you?”

“Nothing. I-I just missed you. I love you, Sean...”

“I love you more, Steven...”

Goddamnit!