Heal The Wounds | ✔ [REWRITING]

♧10-ICE TO BREAK♧

KRRISH

It was going to cross six months very soon that mine and Ruhi's marriage of convenience has happened. But as a husband, I had failed to fulfil any of her demands even though she had never really demanded anything from me.

I had been compelled to do this marriage of convenience with Ruhi to keep the vows of my mother and Ruhi's grandmother. It was very much of shocking fact for me when I had to think Ruhi as my wife. I had never really imagined about being in such relationship with her. I used to have a tiny crush on her in high school but when Ankita arrived in my life, I had gotten completely drawn towrads her.

After my parents death, I became a mess. I had been going through severe depressio, trying hard to cop up with such emptiness of losing my parents. During that time, I needed Ankita most. I needed her to provide me the much required comfort and security but she did the opposite thing. She chose to break up with me and it wad with my own damn best friend. They knew how much I was already going through after my parents' death yet they both chose to betray me and go behind my back

The sudden break up of Ankita had shattered me.I became rather furious than upset with them. After such cruel betrayal, my prospective about love and friendship changed drastically.I chose to get rid of those stupid and messed up emotions by indulging myself in alcohols.I did not want to use this as an excuse for my unsympathetic and idiotic behaviour.But I couldn't help myself as I was afraid to trap myself again in this illusion called love.

I knew that drinking and smoking were very injurious to health but they worked incredibly well as medicines for depression.I was short tempered and I was aware about my anger issues.

I also knew that I was doing absolutely wrong with Ruhi by keeping this distance between us. She really deserved someone better than me. I was not worthy of being her husband. As a husband, I couldn't give anything to her. And that's why I had kept everyone far away from me. Even I didn't talk to Ruhi also. I always had tried to ignore her so that I again wouldn't get captured in the feeling of "love" and again I would lose her also.

However with time, I had realised how much of a insensitive jerk I had been towards her and I should actually think about my marriage with Ruhi. While neglecting her every time, I had not noticed that I had actually crossed my limits which was hurting her very badly. I was pissed off with myself for playing with her emotions in this way only because of my fear in love.

I had infected her much pain but I didn't want to continue this anymore. I was ready to give a try to our relationship. I should at least  try to bring back our old friendship. I could not hold myself more from her after seeing how she was suffering badly due to my ugly behaviour.

Today, I had come to know everything Ruhi when I found her praying to the God. Somewhere I used to have a foolish knowledge that she was also not interested in this marriage as she had never complained or expressed to me about anything. But I had seen today how much she was craving for love.